In the past few weeks, I've had a lot of time to think about my life and my plans for the future. I've spent time regretting (and not regretting), planning, thinking, and re-assesing. I'm trying to figure out what is most important, what is not important, what needs to change, and what I most definitely want to keep around. I've come to a few basic conclusions:
Life does not have to be lived how everyone else tells you it has to be.
And contrary to popular belief, you really do not have to do things you don't want to do. Really. You don't have to go to medical school (heck, you don't have to go to college), you don't have to work from 9-5, you don't have to shop, you don't have to learn math, you don't have to spend time with people you hate, you don't have to have health insurance, you don't have to save for retirement with a 401 K. You don't have to live in a certain state because you were born there. You don't have to eat food you don't want to eat, you don't have to go on a diet, you don't have to work out. You don't have to get fat, you don't have to be careless with your physical appearance, you don't have to wear clothes from Wal Mart. Heck, you don't have to wear clothes if you don't want to.
Do you get it?
Its not that the above things are harmful, and the point is not that the above things should be avoided. Many of them (particularly wearing clothes) are good things to do. But the point is, you don't have to. You can live a "succesful" life without doing any of the above. People will probably find you a bit insane. But that's okay, because insane people are the best. Some people want to be normal. And that's fine. But I don't. I don't want to be normal. I don't want to live an average American life. My motivation is simple: that's boring. And I hate being bored.
See, I've thought for a while that I want to live a nice, secure life. I wanted to graduate from a prestigous college, go to a prestigous law school, get a prestigous career (preferably in politics), possibly marry a prestigous husband, and raise a few prestigous children. You can't have read that without missing the word prestigious. And that's the problem.
A. Prestige is based entirely on other people's opinions. One of my favorite quotes is "If everyone elses opinion is what matters, do you ever have one of your own?" The answer is no. And that's how to live a meaningless life. Which leads me to B.
B. Prestige is empty. The only people who find prestige important are those who somehow consider themselves prestigous. Its kind of like high school. There are always some of those really cool kids who find themselves a cut above the rest of us (and enjoy shoving that in our faces), but at the same time, everyone who's actually cool (as in, interesting, deep, unique, fascinating) could care less about being cool. C. Prestige is boring. Look at "The Real Housewives of New York City." Every person on that show is bored to tears. There's nothing there for them except the approval of other people. Why would anyone want that?
This isn't to say I'm giving up on politics, prestige, my love of nice things, or college. This is to say I'm reevaluating. Maybe those things will stay. Maybe they won't.
This is to say I'm done with living my life for other people. Not that I'm going to become a self-centered, self-seeking individual. But, I will probably dash quite a few people's expectations in my lifetime. Actually, I guarantee I will. But I also want to go above and beyond what anyone could expect. I want to break out of mediocrity.
I've gained a lot of inspiration from the bloggers below. The first guy has set a goal to travel to every country in the entire world, and he has a really cool and inspiring mindset that he shares on his blog. Awesome. The second is a guy who's living his Life List. A Life List is the typical 100 (or 43) things you want to do in your lifetime. A Bucket List, basically. I'm rewriting and adding to mine, and making them more tangible and achievable and awesome.
http://www.johngoddard.info/life_list.htm
http://www.project183.com/
Updates to follow....
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
college will kill me
Everyday I get a e-mail from a college. This particular college choose the unfortunate name, oh so many years ago, of Stephen's College. I have never looked at their website, I have no idea where they are, if they are good or bad, and frankly I do not give a crap. With a name like that, how could it be good?
Sometimes I feel like changing my major to art or creative writing or something similar. Something that will never get me a good job and something I have zero talent in. Something that I really don't enjoy doing; I just like the idea of. Something without GPA's and SAT's and all the horrid stuff that goes along with that.
I didn't register for the SAT on time. So I tried to do late registration. Do you know how much late registration would cost me?? $68. TO TAKE A GOSH DARN TEST NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND SHOULD PAY ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY FOR.
So, apparently, I will just do my Literature and US History tests in Nov. However, that's a problem if I want to apply to PHC early-- I'm not sure if they'll let me send my scores about 3 weeks late.
I think I'm going to apply to The Kings College as well. http://farm1.static.flickr.com/215/475670426_754ea5f1b3.jpg?v=0 This is where I would have the pleasure of residing.
Okay, except, it would be $34,000 a year. *Cough* *AHEM* That's a LOT.
But there are Starbucks in the area.
PHC is a bit better for me, though, I think. I like it better. Hmm. That's a good sign.
Sometimes I feel like changing my major to art or creative writing or something similar. Something that will never get me a good job and something I have zero talent in. Something that I really don't enjoy doing; I just like the idea of. Something without GPA's and SAT's and all the horrid stuff that goes along with that.
I didn't register for the SAT on time. So I tried to do late registration. Do you know how much late registration would cost me?? $68. TO TAKE A GOSH DARN TEST NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND SHOULD PAY ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY FOR.
So, apparently, I will just do my Literature and US History tests in Nov. However, that's a problem if I want to apply to PHC early-- I'm not sure if they'll let me send my scores about 3 weeks late.
I think I'm going to apply to The Kings College as well. http://farm1.static.flickr.com/215/475670426_754ea5f1b3.jpg?v=0 This is where I would have the pleasure of residing.
Okay, except, it would be $34,000 a year. *Cough* *AHEM* That's a LOT.
But there are Starbucks in the area.
PHC is a bit better for me, though, I think. I like it better. Hmm. That's a good sign.
Monday, September 21, 2009
in nineteen seconds you can walk out of someone's life forever
and apparently taking advantage of this is employed by many people.
I am currently doing drivers ed and learning about what to do in 'inclement weather'. This would be incredibly useful and all, except for the fact that CA does not have inclement weather. Or weather. We just have hot + dry (= grumpy). I have never learned more useless info. But hey, I am accomplishing something. And that is rather meritous. Did you know that you are required to wear a bicycle helmet until the age of 18? I guess that will come in handy when I'm driving a car. Also, horse-drawn vehicles are allowed to share the road. My darling, who knew?
Maybe I should do a beauty pageant. 'Cause that's exactly what Toddlers and Tiaras inspires one to do. :-) I love how all the mom's on that show are completely ugly and overweight. With the occasional trophy wife thrown in for good measure.
"There have been 149 CalTrans workers killed in the line of duty." Who knew that reparing the freeway is a warzone?
'Never pass a snowplow' Yeah, that will come in handy.
Yay! I finished the drivers ed course and they're sending my certificate. Success. I want to take the test sometime before my birthday. Ha.
I am currently doing drivers ed and learning about what to do in 'inclement weather'. This would be incredibly useful and all, except for the fact that CA does not have inclement weather. Or weather. We just have hot + dry (= grumpy). I have never learned more useless info. But hey, I am accomplishing something. And that is rather meritous. Did you know that you are required to wear a bicycle helmet until the age of 18? I guess that will come in handy when I'm driving a car. Also, horse-drawn vehicles are allowed to share the road. My darling, who knew?
Maybe I should do a beauty pageant. 'Cause that's exactly what Toddlers and Tiaras inspires one to do. :-) I love how all the mom's on that show are completely ugly and overweight. With the occasional trophy wife thrown in for good measure.
"There have been 149 CalTrans workers killed in the line of duty." Who knew that reparing the freeway is a warzone?
'Never pass a snowplow' Yeah, that will come in handy.
Yay! I finished the drivers ed course and they're sending my certificate. Success. I want to take the test sometime before my birthday. Ha.
Monday, September 14, 2009
birthday list
- Urban Outfitters gift card. Particularly because I am loving everything on their website right now.
- (almost) any purse from Aldo. The bigger the better, of course.
- the 'wedding ring' from Aldo (any of their rings, actually)
- an Amazon gift card, because you can buy anything in the world on Amazon :D
- American Apparel v-necks in any color (baby pink and black especially), available for $9 on Amazon. Amazing.
- Journals. A new largeish leather journal would be nice.
- Jewelry. Basically anything, long necklaces, small earrings, bracelets.
- OPI red nail polish.
- iTunes gift card. Uggggg.....my iTunes library is really missed up.
- if anyone wants to build an H&M here, that'd be kind of great.
- red peacoat and a new black peacoat that actually fits without 10 layers under it
- Starbucks gift card
- long, large scarves
- anything Paris themed, of course. London too. Any city, really.
- (almost) any purse from Aldo. The bigger the better, of course.
- the 'wedding ring' from Aldo (any of their rings, actually)
- an Amazon gift card, because you can buy anything in the world on Amazon :D
- American Apparel v-necks in any color (baby pink and black especially), available for $9 on Amazon. Amazing.
- Journals. A new largeish leather journal would be nice.
- Jewelry. Basically anything, long necklaces, small earrings, bracelets.
- OPI red nail polish.
- iTunes gift card. Uggggg.....my iTunes library is really missed up.
- if anyone wants to build an H&M here, that'd be kind of great.
- red peacoat and a new black peacoat that actually fits without 10 layers under it
- Starbucks gift card
- long, large scarves
- anything Paris themed, of course. London too. Any city, really.
23 Life Lessons Learned @ the D23 Expo- PT1
1. Do not argue with Disney fans over song lyrics. Somehow, they will have every Disney song from the most elusive movies on their phones and iPods. If they say it is "shining, shimmering, splendor" then by all means do not sing "shining, shimmering, splendid".
2. Liking Hannah Montana at age 16 is somewhat disturbing. Liking Hannah Montana at 35 and pontificating on finer aspects of the Hannah Montana culture at 35 is extremely disturbing. Not to mention that true Disney fans consider all aspects of the Hannah Montana brand ridiculous. And would never bid on Lot 41.
3. Rich Disney fans are also fat. This is sort of a flashback to 'olden times' where your size was reflective of your personal monetary value. But, considering how narrow many Disneyland rides are, it is odd that such ardent admirers would be so large.
4. The Haunted Mansion is not just a ride. It is something to base one's entire existence on. To some Disney fans, this is a normal occurence of life. To others, it is somewhat horrifying to see a old guy stacking a stroller 5 feet tall with Haunted Mansion pins. And making his kid walk.
5. Do not cut in front of elderly, British, Disney Princess fans in line. Enough said.
2. Liking Hannah Montana at age 16 is somewhat disturbing. Liking Hannah Montana at 35 and pontificating on finer aspects of the Hannah Montana culture at 35 is extremely disturbing. Not to mention that true Disney fans consider all aspects of the Hannah Montana brand ridiculous. And would never bid on Lot 41.
3. Rich Disney fans are also fat. This is sort of a flashback to 'olden times' where your size was reflective of your personal monetary value. But, considering how narrow many Disneyland rides are, it is odd that such ardent admirers would be so large.
4. The Haunted Mansion is not just a ride. It is something to base one's entire existence on. To some Disney fans, this is a normal occurence of life. To others, it is somewhat horrifying to see a old guy stacking a stroller 5 feet tall with Haunted Mansion pins. And making his kid walk.
5. Do not cut in front of elderly, British, Disney Princess fans in line. Enough said.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
hey stephen, thanks so much for leaving, i'm so glad we didn't stay the same
Dear Stephen,
I really should be over you. In fact, if you knew how much your existence bothers me, you would probably be amused. And your ego would grow bigger and bigger and bigger...as it has a talent for doing. In fact, that's the only talent you have. Stephen and the amazing growing ego. It should be a book.
For the record, one of the most annoying things about you is your Twitter. No one cares that you have your own action figure @ Wal Mart. No one cares that you hate traffic, you love Los Angeles, and that your muscles (like your ego) grow bigger every day. No one cares that you bought a v-neck, go running, or make your own YouTube videos. Millions of more attractive people do these same things everyday. Just because your hair is curly and you have been in two extremely bad movies does not mean you are amazing.
For the record, you being in two movies and on a ridiculous Nickelodeon show that no one with brains would watch does not qualify you as a star. You are not a star. *Repeat Repeat REPEAT* Just because you have been badly playing guitar for five years also does not qualify you as a musician/rock star/talented. Just because you have "friends" does not mean you are popular. Just because you have abs does not mean you are an Abercrombie model. Just because I am taking the time to write this does not mean I am desperate.
For the record, I have no reason to be bitter at you. I have no reason to hate you. But somehow, I still do. Somehow you manage to be incredibly annoying, even though you're miles away. Okay, your not really. But you might as well be. I'm convinced you paid you fan club members to join. I'm also convinced that secretly your life really sucks. I'm convinced you write your own comments on IMDB.
For the record, yes I was kind of a stalker. Desperate, maybe. Creepy, crazy, not incredibly attractive, sociable, or entertaining. I know. I didn't know it at thirteen. But thanks for letting me know.
For the record, some day, in some future moment, we will meet again. I will look fabulous and be making more money than you and hanging on the arm of someone much, much better than you. And I will be wearing Christian Loubutins and you will look shorter than ever. (Not even growing out your ugly afro will help) I will be drinking coffee and I will exude fabulousness. Secretly, I've always been more fabulous than you. I just didn't show it.
Love you. Not.
PS: Oh, by the way, congratulations. I'm not to bitter to say congratulations on attending the College Road Trip premier. Goodness. You really are in the in-crowd now, eh babe?
I really should be over you. In fact, if you knew how much your existence bothers me, you would probably be amused. And your ego would grow bigger and bigger and bigger...as it has a talent for doing. In fact, that's the only talent you have. Stephen and the amazing growing ego. It should be a book.
For the record, one of the most annoying things about you is your Twitter. No one cares that you have your own action figure @ Wal Mart. No one cares that you hate traffic, you love Los Angeles, and that your muscles (like your ego) grow bigger every day. No one cares that you bought a v-neck, go running, or make your own YouTube videos. Millions of more attractive people do these same things everyday. Just because your hair is curly and you have been in two extremely bad movies does not mean you are amazing.
For the record, you being in two movies and on a ridiculous Nickelodeon show that no one with brains would watch does not qualify you as a star. You are not a star. *Repeat Repeat REPEAT* Just because you have been badly playing guitar for five years also does not qualify you as a musician/rock star/talented. Just because you have "friends" does not mean you are popular. Just because you have abs does not mean you are an Abercrombie model. Just because I am taking the time to write this does not mean I am desperate.
For the record, I have no reason to be bitter at you. I have no reason to hate you. But somehow, I still do. Somehow you manage to be incredibly annoying, even though you're miles away. Okay, your not really. But you might as well be. I'm convinced you paid you fan club members to join. I'm also convinced that secretly your life really sucks. I'm convinced you write your own comments on IMDB.
For the record, yes I was kind of a stalker. Desperate, maybe. Creepy, crazy, not incredibly attractive, sociable, or entertaining. I know. I didn't know it at thirteen. But thanks for letting me know.
For the record, some day, in some future moment, we will meet again. I will look fabulous and be making more money than you and hanging on the arm of someone much, much better than you. And I will be wearing Christian Loubutins and you will look shorter than ever. (Not even growing out your ugly afro will help) I will be drinking coffee and I will exude fabulousness. Secretly, I've always been more fabulous than you. I just didn't show it.
Love you. Not.
PS: Oh, by the way, congratulations. I'm not to bitter to say congratulations on attending the College Road Trip premier. Goodness. You really are in the in-crowd now, eh babe?
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
viva la Paris
This is it.
I am done with the West Coast. I am done with hot weather, dry trees, and half-naked people. I am done with Mexican food on every corner and billboards for plastic surgery. If only I were done now. I wish I could go now. I wish I could go at the end of this year. Okay, I could. But I still wouldn't be where I really want to be. *Deep sigh*
Perhaps I really should forget college, move to DC, and open a coffee shop.
I am done with the West Coast. I am done with hot weather, dry trees, and half-naked people. I am done with Mexican food on every corner and billboards for plastic surgery. If only I were done now. I wish I could go now. I wish I could go at the end of this year. Okay, I could. But I still wouldn't be where I really want to be. *Deep sigh*
Perhaps I really should forget college, move to DC, and open a coffee shop.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
can never remember
my Blogger acount.
So, when you liked someone and than they basically dumped you, you are supposed to put up a great facade of how fabulous your life is, right? your not supposed to answer "How are you doing?" with "Eh...all right." Right? Whatever. I fail at life. I fail at creating a good impression of myself. But whatever. I am honest. Sort of.
I have taken to reading badly-written chick-lit. Of the Meg Cabot type. I have reached new levels of patheticness.
I love Fall. I'm looking forward to the clothes. and the cold.
wore a fabulous hat today. lot's of compliments from random people. fun times.
D's b-day was today. we almost exchanged a whole word. WOW. Almost.
So, when you liked someone and than they basically dumped you, you are supposed to put up a great facade of how fabulous your life is, right? your not supposed to answer "How are you doing?" with "Eh...all right." Right? Whatever. I fail at life. I fail at creating a good impression of myself. But whatever. I am honest. Sort of.
I have taken to reading badly-written chick-lit. Of the Meg Cabot type. I have reached new levels of patheticness.
I love Fall. I'm looking forward to the clothes. and the cold.
wore a fabulous hat today. lot's of compliments from random people. fun times.
D's b-day was today. we almost exchanged a whole word. WOW. Almost.
Monday, July 27, 2009
ahhhhhhhhhh...summer
I've enjoyed not writing for two months.
I just spent 10 minutes trying to log into my Blogger account because I couldn't remember what the heck I changed the password too...and now I completely forget anything I wanted to say. Its fabulous.
I just spent 10 minutes trying to log into my Blogger account because I couldn't remember what the heck I changed the password too...and now I completely forget anything I wanted to say. Its fabulous.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
maybe i'm amazed at the way i really need you
So today I finished an epic paper. As I later told my professor, it was a personal epiphany. Unfortunatly, immeadietly after typing this epiphany, it was forever lost in the craziness called hard-drives. Believe me, the words flying through my head threatening to leave my lips were not one's you would typically call, um, ladylike? (Not to mention biblical...)
After I sort of rationalized the situation to myself, I came to realize two things. 1. We should really go back to use typewriters. Things do not disappear on typewriters. 2. I have a horrible memory. I am trying to re-create this paper as I write this, and boy, it is not coming back.
UGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyhow, it was due two hours ago, but my professor is graciously letting me turn it in in an hour. As he quipped, "I would not want to stifle an epiphany being written". Ah yes, let them laugh.
UGG! This day must end.
and it will.
praise the Lord.
and when it does,
so will school.
i need coffee.
After I sort of rationalized the situation to myself, I came to realize two things. 1. We should really go back to use typewriters. Things do not disappear on typewriters. 2. I have a horrible memory. I am trying to re-create this paper as I write this, and boy, it is not coming back.
UGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyhow, it was due two hours ago, but my professor is graciously letting me turn it in in an hour. As he quipped, "I would not want to stifle an epiphany being written". Ah yes, let them laugh.
UGG! This day must end.
and it will.
praise the Lord.
and when it does,
so will school.
i need coffee.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
i saw you
I got a D in Alg2. I could have tried so much harder, I could have worked, I could have passed. I'm mad. I'm not mad at my teacher, or the class, or even math in general. I'm really disappointed in myself.
But honestly, its not the end of the world. I have my whole life and my whole future ahead of me. If I don't get into _____ College because of it, than obviously that's not where I belong. Because, at the end of the day, I can't be a jack of all trades. I don't want to count my chickens before they hatch, but I'm pretty confident the rest of my grades will be okay. It is not who wins the battle, it is who wins the war. I believe in myself, and my dreams are going to come true. (Yes, I purposely used every cliche I could think of in this paragraph.)
It doesn't matter if you win or lose, its how you play the game. And I loved this semester. I learned SO SO much, about so many things. I read a ton. I met a lot of amazing people. I rocked the SAT's. I got an amazing internship with my congressman. I laughed every single day. I lost weight, gained weight, and lost it again. :-D I discovered fashion blogs. I had an amazing experience doing Model UN. I liked a couple guys, but it was all lovely and lighthearted. I went to Disneyland. I danced. I built amazing relationships with my teachers. I drank coffee. A lot of coffee. Way too much coffee. (If you are what you eat (cliche number 200) I am a vanilla latte). I got elected VP of the political science club. I skipped through the city with my BFF. I got through some nasty drama with my dignity in check. I watched the inauguration. I changed my college list a million times. I flirted. I shopped. I read Newsweek. And in my famous words, even if all else had failed, it would be okay. Because I looked fabulous. :-)
My life happiness doesn't depend on that grade, or any grade for that matter. There is so much more to my life. And I love it.
But honestly, its not the end of the world. I have my whole life and my whole future ahead of me. If I don't get into _____ College because of it, than obviously that's not where I belong. Because, at the end of the day, I can't be a jack of all trades. I don't want to count my chickens before they hatch, but I'm pretty confident the rest of my grades will be okay. It is not who wins the battle, it is who wins the war. I believe in myself, and my dreams are going to come true. (Yes, I purposely used every cliche I could think of in this paragraph.)
It doesn't matter if you win or lose, its how you play the game. And I loved this semester. I learned SO SO much, about so many things. I read a ton. I met a lot of amazing people. I rocked the SAT's. I got an amazing internship with my congressman. I laughed every single day. I lost weight, gained weight, and lost it again. :-D I discovered fashion blogs. I had an amazing experience doing Model UN. I liked a couple guys, but it was all lovely and lighthearted. I went to Disneyland. I danced. I built amazing relationships with my teachers. I drank coffee. A lot of coffee. Way too much coffee. (If you are what you eat (cliche number 200) I am a vanilla latte). I got elected VP of the political science club. I skipped through the city with my BFF. I got through some nasty drama with my dignity in check. I watched the inauguration. I changed my college list a million times. I flirted. I shopped. I read Newsweek. And in my famous words, even if all else had failed, it would be okay. Because I looked fabulous. :-)
My life happiness doesn't depend on that grade, or any grade for that matter. There is so much more to my life. And I love it.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
is the sun shining?
I know I'm not the only person in America absolutly torn over Jon & Kate+8. I love/loved this show. Oh yeah, its dramaticized and what not. But the kids are adorable. And they've always seemed like this awesome family that's so darn real. Jon and Kate argue, the kids whine, the trash doesn't get taken out, and people are trapising in and out at all hours. And, unlike a certain Duggar family, they are most certaintly NOT perfect. So, I hope the best for them. I truly believe the kids are all happy, healthy, adored, and loved.
Next on the pop culture trail, what is Britney Spears doing? Her newest music video/single...oh my. its sort of a new low on the trail of lows. Its kind of a let down. I mean, not that I think she's some sort of super-talented amazing creative performer. But I liked her last two singles (Circus, and Womanizer). Okay, liked is a bit of an overstatement. They were tolerable. A good comback. But the fact that I won't even write the title of her video on my blog is sort of a bad sign.
Okay, I know, what do I really expect.
This post was addmitedly, pointless, but hey. Its finals week. A little blah blah blah is good for the soul.
Next on the pop culture trail, what is Britney Spears doing? Her newest music video/single...oh my. its sort of a new low on the trail of lows. Its kind of a let down. I mean, not that I think she's some sort of super-talented amazing creative performer. But I liked her last two singles (Circus, and Womanizer). Okay, liked is a bit of an overstatement. They were tolerable. A good comback. But the fact that I won't even write the title of her video on my blog is sort of a bad sign.
Okay, I know, what do I really expect.
This post was addmitedly, pointless, but hey. Its finals week. A little blah blah blah is good for the soul.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
wave goodbye, wish me well
SAT results come out Thursday (I am dying of anticipation) and we have two and a half weeks of school left. I'm freaking out about bio and alg. 2. Well, I should be freaking out more than I am. My two major classes (major as in my major, not as in large or big problem--far from it)....one is done with and I'm pretty sure I did good (probably a B), and I have one paper left for the second, which I'm starting this week because I swear, I am not doing another paper the night before it is due. (Just wait.....this is me)
I'm failing Bio and Alg 2. But again, I'm working. I've never failed a class yet, and you better believe I am not starting now.
English and History are good, all things considered, I should come out with A's.
And dance...heh....I need to do a ton of make-ups. But I will.
My other accomplishment of the semester (or, I guess, year) is I spent a year in the Political Science Club (never mind I did nothing but show up, basically, but shhh) and am now VP (and I plan to do a lot more than just show up). And am relishing the title "Madame Vice President". Which several have used in adressing me of late.
Tomorrow, after school, I have an interview at our House representatives office. I'm (fingers crossed) going to be interning in his office this summer. :-)
So, overall, I'm proud of myself. I mean, obviously, this could all fall apart in the next 3 weeks. Or 3 minutes. But, for me, the overbearing perfectionist (at least on myself, I could care less about others) its nice to not completely fail.
Colleges of the Week (LOL, yes, its come to this; though after Thursday this list might change to CSUN and SDSU :D) : Yale (CT), Brown (Rhode Island), Wellesly (MA), George Washington (I like it more than American right now), Barnard (in NY), and Tufts (MA). Yes, two of those are women's colleges. But, they're both next door to a lot of other colleges and have amazing programs and have a lot of plusses. So. Yeah.
Yale and Brown are Ivy's. Tufts is an almost Ivy...but it seems (from a short perusal of their website) perfect for me. Wellesly is awesome academically, and I fit on the lower end of their acceptances (always a +), I love the location, and I'm beginning to 'get' the whole women's college thing. George Washington is better than American and its likely I'd get in. Barnard is something I'm unsure on. Nothing about them wow's me.
So yeah.
I'm failing Bio and Alg 2. But again, I'm working. I've never failed a class yet, and you better believe I am not starting now.
English and History are good, all things considered, I should come out with A's.
And dance...heh....I need to do a ton of make-ups. But I will.
My other accomplishment of the semester (or, I guess, year) is I spent a year in the Political Science Club (never mind I did nothing but show up, basically, but shhh) and am now VP (and I plan to do a lot more than just show up). And am relishing the title "Madame Vice President". Which several have used in adressing me of late.
Tomorrow, after school, I have an interview at our House representatives office. I'm (fingers crossed) going to be interning in his office this summer. :-)
So, overall, I'm proud of myself. I mean, obviously, this could all fall apart in the next 3 weeks. Or 3 minutes. But, for me, the overbearing perfectionist (at least on myself, I could care less about others) its nice to not completely fail.
Colleges of the Week (LOL, yes, its come to this; though after Thursday this list might change to CSUN and SDSU :D) : Yale (CT), Brown (Rhode Island), Wellesly (MA), George Washington (I like it more than American right now), Barnard (in NY), and Tufts (MA). Yes, two of those are women's colleges. But, they're both next door to a lot of other colleges and have amazing programs and have a lot of plusses. So. Yeah.
Yale and Brown are Ivy's. Tufts is an almost Ivy...but it seems (from a short perusal of their website) perfect for me. Wellesly is awesome academically, and I fit on the lower end of their acceptances (always a +), I love the location, and I'm beginning to 'get' the whole women's college thing. George Washington is better than American and its likely I'd get in. Barnard is something I'm unsure on. Nothing about them wow's me.
So yeah.
Monday, May 18, 2009
my anger is displayed in rather humorous/atypical ways
second short post of the day.....
but do you know what is SO SO annoying? people on Youtube who comment and somehow make everything from Mozart to the The Killers relate to Twilight. Excuse me while I hit my skull on something similar to concrete.
Twilight is not The Bible. Or Shakespeare. And apparently, the people who do not want Twilight as the defining cultural book (rather, event, phenomenon, commercial materialistic crap) of my generation/century have yet to come together and protest.
21st century does not equal corny, over-romantic, one-dimensional, plastic, airbrushed...vampires.
Vampires were "in" in like, the 1500's. Back when people actually believed in mystical stuff.
Wait, did I say, back when? Sorry, I just got the memo that modernization has never occured.
but do you know what is SO SO annoying? people on Youtube who comment and somehow make everything from Mozart to the The Killers relate to Twilight. Excuse me while I hit my skull on something similar to concrete.
Twilight is not The Bible. Or Shakespeare. And apparently, the people who do not want Twilight as the defining cultural book (rather, event, phenomenon, commercial materialistic crap) of my generation/century have yet to come together and protest.
21st century does not equal corny, over-romantic, one-dimensional, plastic, airbrushed...vampires.
Vampires were "in" in like, the 1500's. Back when people actually believed in mystical stuff.
Wait, did I say, back when? Sorry, I just got the memo that modernization has never occured.
you've got to help me out
Where do people get the idea that it is okay to wear overalls?
Let me tell you, it is the only thing worse than sweats, pajamas, Juicy Couture, bra straps, bleached blonde hair, and everything else horrible and dispicable in the world combined.
Overalls = NO.
Let me tell you, it is the only thing worse than sweats, pajamas, Juicy Couture, bra straps, bleached blonde hair, and everything else horrible and dispicable in the world combined.
Overalls = NO.
Friday, May 15, 2009
since i need to lose a few....
I might just print this out and put it on my binder....
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Friday, May 8, 2009
take me back to that place
because that title has never been done for a "stuff I want" post.
2 people on Flickr have dogs named Tashi. They're really cute dogs, so I don't mind.
So, I've checked the weather for the next 10 days. Apparently its finally time to pack away the warm black tights, the adorable LBD, the red heels, the black beret, and well, everything else black in my closet. Or in other words, everything.
I will be the first to admit that I hate summer. I could live a long, long time without sundresses, shorts, lightweight shirts, and sandals. Give me a cashmere men's sweater and I'm good. I like my jeans, my tights, my boots, my black. Basically I like my black. Black is not a summer color. But black is my color.
So, for summer, white is my color. And yes, I like white. Its breezy, airy, cool. Its no black, that's for sure. But sometimes its the only thing you've got. Like when its 108 degrees out. That white starts to look pretty darn good.
Part of my detesting of warm weather is the lack of clothes I have for it. I own four sundresses, two pairs of shorts (that I would actually wear), one skirt, one pair of sandals, and maybe a shirt or two. Maybe that doesn't sound too shabby, but I rarely wear the same thing in the same way twice.
My shopping list currently includes: and this will probably be my birthday list too:
-a leather messenger bag
- a new purse (not cloth, pretty color- perhaps salmon or yellow)
- a Calvin Klein dress from Ross. This is like, the perfect dress. I'd like it in white, maybe yellow. Its a bit stiff and structured, which is probably why I <3 it. Its about $40 though. So we'll see. I want my mommy to buy it for me.
- white heels. I have cream wedges right now, but I'd like some actual white heels.
-a lightweight white sundress, to be worn with all sorts of cardigans and such.
- a cute little straw men's fedora.
- another pair of white ballet flats. I'm getting the impression I'm going to be wearing mine a lot, and since they're from Payless they're guaranteed to get worn out.
- some more light lovely dresses
I want to spend a day in bed. But not in my house. I don't know where. I just do.
Maybe when I go home I'll lie under the trees. We'll see.
2 people on Flickr have dogs named Tashi. They're really cute dogs, so I don't mind.
So, I've checked the weather for the next 10 days. Apparently its finally time to pack away the warm black tights, the adorable LBD, the red heels, the black beret, and well, everything else black in my closet. Or in other words, everything.
I will be the first to admit that I hate summer. I could live a long, long time without sundresses, shorts, lightweight shirts, and sandals. Give me a cashmere men's sweater and I'm good. I like my jeans, my tights, my boots, my black. Basically I like my black. Black is not a summer color. But black is my color.
So, for summer, white is my color. And yes, I like white. Its breezy, airy, cool. Its no black, that's for sure. But sometimes its the only thing you've got. Like when its 108 degrees out. That white starts to look pretty darn good.
Part of my detesting of warm weather is the lack of clothes I have for it. I own four sundresses, two pairs of shorts (that I would actually wear), one skirt, one pair of sandals, and maybe a shirt or two. Maybe that doesn't sound too shabby, but I rarely wear the same thing in the same way twice.
My shopping list currently includes: and this will probably be my birthday list too:
-a leather messenger bag
- a new purse (not cloth, pretty color- perhaps salmon or yellow)
- a Calvin Klein dress from Ross. This is like, the perfect dress. I'd like it in white, maybe yellow. Its a bit stiff and structured, which is probably why I <3 it. Its about $40 though. So we'll see. I want my mommy to buy it for me.
- white heels. I have cream wedges right now, but I'd like some actual white heels.
-a lightweight white sundress, to be worn with all sorts of cardigans and such.
- a cute little straw men's fedora.
- another pair of white ballet flats. I'm getting the impression I'm going to be wearing mine a lot, and since they're from Payless they're guaranteed to get worn out.
- some more light lovely dresses
I want to spend a day in bed. But not in my house. I don't know where. I just do.
Maybe when I go home I'll lie under the trees. We'll see.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
goodbye is the saddest word
So we all know the things where you enter your name and than find out all about yourself are totally vapid of any truth or meaning.
But I did, just for the fun of it, and here we go: (Comments added)
You Are Dreamy and Distracted
You are very intuitive and wise. agreed
You understand the world better than most people. possible
You also have a very active imagination. yes
You often get carried away with your thoughts. hmm hmm
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. not exactly
You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. but than again, yes
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. i strive for perfection but am never the best at anything
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. any agressivness i have is so buried you would be hard pressed to find it
You have the classic "Type A" personality. i've heard that before but don't really know
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. yes
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. eh, yeah
You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. so yeah, that's very true
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. again, all right
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. um, no. i am not 'suave', sexy--welll..., i'm mediocrely smart, and if i'm at all strong physically, i'm extremely weak emotionally
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. no, i can flirt with almost anyone i know. there is a difference.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. uh, actually, i do. i don't crush anyone.
Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. thank you, sire.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. i don't have the power to carry them out Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. this is both true and untrue
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. probably true
You're a strong person. Um, sorry buddy, no.
But I did, just for the fun of it, and here we go: (Comments added)
You Are Dreamy and Distracted
You are very intuitive and wise. agreed
You understand the world better than most people. possible
You also have a very active imagination. yes
You often get carried away with your thoughts. hmm hmm
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. not exactly
You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. but than again, yes
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. i strive for perfection but am never the best at anything
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. any agressivness i have is so buried you would be hard pressed to find it
You have the classic "Type A" personality. i've heard that before but don't really know
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. yes
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. eh, yeah
You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. so yeah, that's very true
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. again, all right
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. um, no. i am not 'suave', sexy--welll..., i'm mediocrely smart, and if i'm at all strong physically, i'm extremely weak emotionally
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. no, i can flirt with almost anyone i know. there is a difference.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. uh, actually, i do. i don't crush anyone.
Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. thank you, sire.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. i don't have the power to carry them out Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. this is both true and untrue
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. probably true
You're a strong person. Um, sorry buddy, no.
my shadow walks beside me
So, I plan on writing a memoir. Well, there's one condition. See, the name is (tentatively) Surviving Suburbia. Of course, to write this brilliant prose (ha), I have to actually survive.
Don't feel much like writing lately. Too much to say, but not enough words.
Don't feel much like writing lately. Too much to say, but not enough words.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
i'd walk to you if i had no other way
So yesterday, one of my professors, my favorite professor for that matter, asked me where I want to go to college. And I said American U, because that is/was my first choice. He gives me this look of dismay and asks "Why?" I was taken off guard because most people who've heard of AU think it makes perfect sense for a political science major to go there. I asked him "Why not?" and he says something like you could get into so many better schools, and etc. and etc. and than he's like "why not go Ivy League?" This is after hearing my GPA.
I was immensely flattered. Its not every day that someone incredibly smart, who got their doctorate at Purdue, who got into many ivy's, tells you that you could get into an ivy. My parents were impressed. Okay, my dad was impressed by the fact that I have over a 3.5
I don't want to unneccesairly limit myself. I contemplated Ivy type schools last summer but eventually( i.e. sometime between PSAT's and Fall semester grades) I gave up. I think I underestimate myself a lot. I'm waiting till the end of this semester to make any "final" decisions about where to apply. SAT's are on Sat. (HA, same initals) and I want to see these semesters grades for sure.
Anyhow, there are seven Ivy's. Harvard, Yale, Princeton, Brown, Columbia, Dartmouth, and University of Pennsylvania. I have commentary on each:
Harvard: There's a reason its the greatest university in America. Obviously its not very likely I would get into Harvard. They have amazing financial aid, Boston seems amazing, and everyone who goes there seems very intelligent and passionate about life.
Yale: Seems really cool. The grounds themselves are beautiful. Like all of our last presidents except for Obama went there, so that says something for their poly sci program.
Princeton: Its in, basically, a suburb. They have eating clubs which are sort of like fraternities except they involve food. Really preppy, so I've heard, which I would probably love. They have an odd curriculum.
Brown: Really cool. They don't have a core curriculum, so you basically take what you want. Which sounds really cool. Pretty liberal. Pretty laid back. Providence seems nice, but may not be enough of a city.
Columbia: In NYC. Has a core curriculum..eh. Probably would transfer well. Smack dab in the biggest city, which is awesome and not so awesome. Seems nice.
Dartmouth: In the middle of no where. No matter what the merits of this excellent school are, I am not living in the country.
UPenn: Cool. Nice. Not sure about Pennsylvania. Nothing wrong with it, I just haven't considered living there.
So yeah. My not so great opinions on super great schools.
Looking forward to starting college applications......................................................
I was immensely flattered. Its not every day that someone incredibly smart, who got their doctorate at Purdue, who got into many ivy's, tells you that you could get into an ivy. My parents were impressed. Okay, my dad was impressed by the fact that I have over a 3.5
I don't want to unneccesairly limit myself. I contemplated Ivy type schools last summer but eventually( i.e. sometime between PSAT's and Fall semester grades) I gave up. I think I underestimate myself a lot. I'm waiting till the end of this semester to make any "final" decisions about where to apply. SAT's are on Sat. (HA, same initals) and I want to see these semesters grades for sure.
Anyhow, there are seven Ivy's. Harvard, Yale, Princeton, Brown, Columbia, Dartmouth, and University of Pennsylvania. I have commentary on each:
Harvard: There's a reason its the greatest university in America. Obviously its not very likely I would get into Harvard. They have amazing financial aid, Boston seems amazing, and everyone who goes there seems very intelligent and passionate about life.
Yale: Seems really cool. The grounds themselves are beautiful. Like all of our last presidents except for Obama went there, so that says something for their poly sci program.
Princeton: Its in, basically, a suburb. They have eating clubs which are sort of like fraternities except they involve food. Really preppy, so I've heard, which I would probably love. They have an odd curriculum.
Brown: Really cool. They don't have a core curriculum, so you basically take what you want. Which sounds really cool. Pretty liberal. Pretty laid back. Providence seems nice, but may not be enough of a city.
Columbia: In NYC. Has a core curriculum..eh. Probably would transfer well. Smack dab in the biggest city, which is awesome and not so awesome. Seems nice.
Dartmouth: In the middle of no where. No matter what the merits of this excellent school are, I am not living in the country.
UPenn: Cool. Nice. Not sure about Pennsylvania. Nothing wrong with it, I just haven't considered living there.
So yeah. My not so great opinions on super great schools.
Looking forward to starting college applications......................................................
Thursday, April 23, 2009
C'est ca l'Amour
I'm terrified that its going to rain. Okay, so terrified may not be the right word for it. I'm wearing a strapless dress (my easter dress), a very thin white coat, and wedges. Yes, I'm cold. I'm loving the summer weather. Well, the Summer weather that was. I'm a person who really likes consistency. Hmmph.
I'd really love one of the Yves Saint Laurent wristlets that look like an envelope. They're so cute.
I am listening to the worst song right now. But I love the beat. The words are just SO...oh gosh.
I was walking up the stairs just now holding my giant bag on one arm, a venti coffee in one hand, a venti water in the other, my binder, and my coat on the other-- and this guy hands me a flier (he was really cute) smiles at me, and goes "You look like you need to save money on books!!" and winks at me.
Thinks to self "Honey, I need help with a lot more than books. Like, walking and not triping on my wedges and falling over would be a great start. "
I'm thinking about going vegetarian for a month. We'll see. I'm afraid, honestly, that I'll eat worse not better. But than again, can I really eat worse than I do now??
I'm also thinking about reading a book a week. I read the equivalent of a book a week right now. Its just usually split up pages. Which sort of annoys me because I feel like I never get the full content.
Day 2 of my French studies is going well. A bit of Disney, a bit of conversation, and a bit of Miss Dior Cherie. C'est ca l'Amour. (So this is love).
I'd really love one of the Yves Saint Laurent wristlets that look like an envelope. They're so cute.
I am listening to the worst song right now. But I love the beat. The words are just SO...oh gosh.
I was walking up the stairs just now holding my giant bag on one arm, a venti coffee in one hand, a venti water in the other, my binder, and my coat on the other-- and this guy hands me a flier (he was really cute) smiles at me, and goes "You look like you need to save money on books!!" and winks at me.
Thinks to self "Honey, I need help with a lot more than books. Like, walking and not triping on my wedges and falling over would be a great start. "
I'm thinking about going vegetarian for a month. We'll see. I'm afraid, honestly, that I'll eat worse not better. But than again, can I really eat worse than I do now??
I'm also thinking about reading a book a week. I read the equivalent of a book a week right now. Its just usually split up pages. Which sort of annoys me because I feel like I never get the full content.
Day 2 of my French studies is going well. A bit of Disney, a bit of conversation, and a bit of Miss Dior Cherie. C'est ca l'Amour. (So this is love).
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Je l'aime
I have decided that I am going to work on one of my most important life goals this spring/summer.
I am going to teach myself French: the whole shebang. How to speak, read, and understand. I considered taking a French 101 class this summer, but I would be missing the last two weeks because of my Washington DC trip. Obviously, that would not work out. So, I'm going to teach myself.
First, I am going to order a set of basic CD's to teach me conversational French. I'll upload those to my iPod. I'm also going to subscribe to a podcast in French--what about, I am not sure. We all ready have a French dictionary at home, so I'll use that. I also need to purchase a guide to French grammar. The best website on teaching one's self a foreign language suggests doing one audio lesson a day, as well as reading through a grammar guide at the same time.
Eventually I'll read some beginner French stories, building up to the pieces (some political theorists) that I really want to read.
currently I am listening to Beauty and the Beast songs in French. Fabulous.
I am going to teach myself French: the whole shebang. How to speak, read, and understand. I considered taking a French 101 class this summer, but I would be missing the last two weeks because of my Washington DC trip. Obviously, that would not work out. So, I'm going to teach myself.
First, I am going to order a set of basic CD's to teach me conversational French. I'll upload those to my iPod. I'm also going to subscribe to a podcast in French--what about, I am not sure. We all ready have a French dictionary at home, so I'll use that. I also need to purchase a guide to French grammar. The best website on teaching one's self a foreign language suggests doing one audio lesson a day, as well as reading through a grammar guide at the same time.
Eventually I'll read some beginner French stories, building up to the pieces (some political theorists) that I really want to read.
currently I am listening to Beauty and the Beast songs in French. Fabulous.
Monday, April 20, 2009
its our time now
We went to Venice Beach yesterday.
Any ideas I ever had about being a hippie are now cured. Seriously, it was nuts. All the street vendors were totally high. Or coming down from a high. Or looking for more pot. Or selling stuff praising the joys of pot. Or selling paintings they painted while high.
I asked this guy how much for one of his necklaces and he goes
"Free, if you give me a cigarette."
And I'm like "I don't have one."
He's like "Why not?"
"I'm 16. (stupid)"
"So? You should start smoking. Your supposed to question authority. Its not like you'll get cancer."
"I don't want to smoke."
"You should move out here and become a model--you're really beautiful. (Ew) College is stupid. Your just gonna work for some male boss for the rest of your life....move out here."
I start walking away and he yells out "think about what I had to say!!!"
Gee, thanks for the unsolicited advice.
We got in the car later and I said "I am going home. I am taking a shower. I am putting on a suit, and I am surrounding myself with books and jewerly and my bed and my nice things. I will never ever ever do drugs, I will never ever be a hippie, and I will never live on the beach."
I started thinking about what it is in people that makes everyone want to convert people to their way of thinking. I mean, I get why Christians do it. We have the truth. But people are never content to have a way of life and just follow it themselves. They have to drag other people with them. We can talk about complete tolerance all we want-- but I think its impossible. The majority of people can't live without others in total agreement with them.
Also, why is it that people get to say "Oh my God" till the cows come home; but if someone draws Muhammad in a cartoon the Muslim countries throw a riot and we all listen?
I've also never understood Muslim people who are seriously conservative Muslim and say that phrase.
Life. I just don't get it sometimes.
Any ideas I ever had about being a hippie are now cured. Seriously, it was nuts. All the street vendors were totally high. Or coming down from a high. Or looking for more pot. Or selling stuff praising the joys of pot. Or selling paintings they painted while high.
I asked this guy how much for one of his necklaces and he goes
"Free, if you give me a cigarette."
And I'm like "I don't have one."
He's like "Why not?"
"I'm 16. (stupid)"
"So? You should start smoking. Your supposed to question authority. Its not like you'll get cancer."
"I don't want to smoke."
"You should move out here and become a model--you're really beautiful. (Ew) College is stupid. Your just gonna work for some male boss for the rest of your life....move out here."
I start walking away and he yells out "think about what I had to say!!!"
Gee, thanks for the unsolicited advice.
We got in the car later and I said "I am going home. I am taking a shower. I am putting on a suit, and I am surrounding myself with books and jewerly and my bed and my nice things. I will never ever ever do drugs, I will never ever be a hippie, and I will never live on the beach."
I started thinking about what it is in people that makes everyone want to convert people to their way of thinking. I mean, I get why Christians do it. We have the truth. But people are never content to have a way of life and just follow it themselves. They have to drag other people with them. We can talk about complete tolerance all we want-- but I think its impossible. The majority of people can't live without others in total agreement with them.
Also, why is it that people get to say "Oh my God" till the cows come home; but if someone draws Muhammad in a cartoon the Muslim countries throw a riot and we all listen?
I've also never understood Muslim people who are seriously conservative Muslim and say that phrase.
Life. I just don't get it sometimes.
Friday, April 17, 2009
let me be the first to wish you the worst
to get straight bangs or to not get straight bangs? that is the question I ask of thee.
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I don't know. *whines* I don't really want to look younger. But. I dunno. The bangs cannot stay like they are now. Non.
(a side note: have the Olsen twins ever eaten?)
why does most food look better in photos than in real life? (i actually know the answer) but still.
you have to Youtube the "real life pacman" video. I am crying of laughter. (yay for not wearing eyeliner today. i cry from laughing almost everyday and than have to run to the bathroom so as not to look emo/racoon/mourning widow/ish).
i need to buy a new black coat this Fall. Preferably one that *gasp* fits properly. Who knew such a thing existed. i just want summer to be over with. which is dreadful of me.
would it be truly evil of me to name my daughter Chanel?
maybe a middle name.
Paris Chanel. That is so pretty---and yet, so cruel.
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I don't know. *whines* I don't really want to look younger. But. I dunno. The bangs cannot stay like they are now. Non.
(a side note: have the Olsen twins ever eaten?)
why does most food look better in photos than in real life? (i actually know the answer) but still.
you have to Youtube the "real life pacman" video. I am crying of laughter. (yay for not wearing eyeliner today. i cry from laughing almost everyday and than have to run to the bathroom so as not to look emo/racoon/mourning widow/ish).
i need to buy a new black coat this Fall. Preferably one that *gasp* fits properly. Who knew such a thing existed. i just want summer to be over with. which is dreadful of me.
would it be truly evil of me to name my daughter Chanel?
maybe a middle name.
Paris Chanel. That is so pretty---and yet, so cruel.
so someday
I am (really) going to buy these lifetime essentials:
-a Chanel 2.55
-a (practical) pair of Christian Loubutins. the red sole is just....indescribable.
-a tailored Chanel suit. that will last me my whole life and a day.
i'm scheming with how i'm going to buy these.
inheritance money, anyone? (i so hope no one I am related to reads that. :P)
-a Chanel 2.55
-a (practical) pair of Christian Loubutins. the red sole is just....indescribable.
-a tailored Chanel suit. that will last me my whole life and a day.
i'm scheming with how i'm going to buy these.
inheritance money, anyone? (i so hope no one I am related to reads that. :P)
death by clothes
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=dress%5Fdressy&product%5Fid=2056275486&Page=2
I really hope they have this at the F21 in my stinky town. I love it. Its so girly and just...delicous. lol.
a boy in my class bakes (so cool), and he made the most amazing chocolate chip cookies today. Big. Soft. Chewy. YUM.
I really hope they have this at the F21 in my stinky town. I love it. Its so girly and just...delicous. lol.
a boy in my class bakes (so cool), and he made the most amazing chocolate chip cookies today. Big. Soft. Chewy. YUM.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
i love the days
when a flash of inspiration just hits you.
as in, I was looking on Amazon for a leather messanger bag and realized they had previously sold the Kenneth Cole kind at Marshall's. and if something is at Marshall's once- chances are it may be their again.
oh lala.
(why that was so epic it needed to be written about---UHM?)
as in, I was looking on Amazon for a leather messanger bag and realized they had previously sold the Kenneth Cole kind at Marshall's. and if something is at Marshall's once- chances are it may be their again.
oh lala.
(why that was so epic it needed to be written about---UHM?)
red wine
i'm actually loving dance this week.
I think I actually want this: http://printliberation.com/store.php?id=110 I mean, aside from the hilariousness value, its a momento. a sort of memoir of the first half of my life. something I could show my children someday. I have a feeling my mom/dad would not buy that for me or let me buy it. Hmm.
I need some more (actually, I just need. I don't have any) cool graphic t's.
I WANT THESE:http://i631.photobucket.com/albums/uu34/truly-scrumptious03/redshoes.jpg
I have decided, because as you all know, I am the ultimate authority on all things--especially fashion *ha*----men should wear heels. Not like the ones pictured above, but like, thick heels. Those sort of dress shoes that all fabulous guys wear? They should have heels.
This is so amazingly ridiculous that I love it: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUXJx-08gi9CpG6wmXtvvxiUmOKHIlN1iy1dKjUKrwF-Gu_a2fVmgppHyXTqROeuV8GYnAK-I0hBdTLnjKlk4CWFOh_dL4_-xvpuVDh5Me_fWeVsEEqGCe7_5TB_iAx1q8Jl1tPxyYtPuv/s1600-h/00490h-1--2009.03.10.13.58.47.628120_base.jpg
and these were so obviously made for me: http://www.barneys.com/Miminette/159016371,default,pd.html look at the reasonable heel! How fabulous!
Today one of my professors was talking about how if something is Prada than we can totally get away with anything and the kitchen sink. It is SO true. I mean, if someone handed me those shoes above (the first pic) and was like "here, your fabulous, have some Loubutins!" I would put them on in a heartbeat. (I would than proceed to spend the rest of my life thanking that person. Probably by offering them my entire existence as their personal slave). If someone was like "here, your fabulous, have these shoes from WalMart" (even if they did look exactly the same- WHICH THEY WOULD NOT) I would give that person my most standoffish look and proceed to stalk off in the opposite direction. (okay, so not really.)
Maxi dresses from Ralph Lauren? All right, okay. Its Ralph. Maxi dresses from Mervyns *no longer in businesss PTL* NO.
Which leads me to....
Imitation is not the same thing. I, personally, feel extremely strongly about not carrying fake bags, wearing fake sunglasses, etc. etc. 1. Its tacky. Because even if you can't tell the difference, I guarantee you, someone(s) can. 2. Its ugly. 3. Its sort of cheating/lying, in a way. and 4. it sucks.
hmm hmm.
I think I need a job and I need to not need to go to college/have expenses so that I can just buy extremely expensive shoes and bags.
Garance Dore is amazing. She's dating the Sartorialist. Which just adds to her amazingness.
I found myself sitting in class today wishing they made women's dress pants stiffer. Like, women's dress pants are often sort of wide and airy. (maybe its cause my calves are quite small in comparison to my thighs?) I wish they were more straight legged, or skinny. Not pegged legged. Ah well.
I think I actually want this: http://printliberation.com/store.php?id=110 I mean, aside from the hilariousness value, its a momento. a sort of memoir of the first half of my life. something I could show my children someday. I have a feeling my mom/dad would not buy that for me or let me buy it. Hmm.
I need some more (actually, I just need. I don't have any) cool graphic t's.
I WANT THESE:http://i631.photobucket.com/albums/uu34/truly-scrumptious03/redshoes.jpg
I have decided, because as you all know, I am the ultimate authority on all things--especially fashion *ha*----men should wear heels. Not like the ones pictured above, but like, thick heels. Those sort of dress shoes that all fabulous guys wear? They should have heels.
This is so amazingly ridiculous that I love it: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUXJx-08gi9CpG6wmXtvvxiUmOKHIlN1iy1dKjUKrwF-Gu_a2fVmgppHyXTqROeuV8GYnAK-I0hBdTLnjKlk4CWFOh_dL4_-xvpuVDh5Me_fWeVsEEqGCe7_5TB_iAx1q8Jl1tPxyYtPuv/s1600-h/00490h-1--2009.03.10.13.58.47.628120_base.jpg
and these were so obviously made for me: http://www.barneys.com/Miminette/159016371,default,pd.html look at the reasonable heel! How fabulous!
Today one of my professors was talking about how if something is Prada than we can totally get away with anything and the kitchen sink. It is SO true. I mean, if someone handed me those shoes above (the first pic) and was like "here, your fabulous, have some Loubutins!" I would put them on in a heartbeat. (I would than proceed to spend the rest of my life thanking that person. Probably by offering them my entire existence as their personal slave). If someone was like "here, your fabulous, have these shoes from WalMart" (even if they did look exactly the same- WHICH THEY WOULD NOT) I would give that person my most standoffish look and proceed to stalk off in the opposite direction. (okay, so not really.)
Maxi dresses from Ralph Lauren? All right, okay. Its Ralph. Maxi dresses from Mervyns *no longer in businesss PTL* NO.
Which leads me to....
Imitation is not the same thing. I, personally, feel extremely strongly about not carrying fake bags, wearing fake sunglasses, etc. etc. 1. Its tacky. Because even if you can't tell the difference, I guarantee you, someone(s) can. 2. Its ugly. 3. Its sort of cheating/lying, in a way. and 4. it sucks.
hmm hmm.
I think I need a job and I need to not need to go to college/have expenses so that I can just buy extremely expensive shoes and bags.
Garance Dore is amazing. She's dating the Sartorialist. Which just adds to her amazingness.
I found myself sitting in class today wishing they made women's dress pants stiffer. Like, women's dress pants are often sort of wide and airy. (maybe its cause my calves are quite small in comparison to my thighs?) I wish they were more straight legged, or skinny. Not pegged legged. Ah well.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
sacre blume! invaders!
^ please ignore my butchering of the French spelling of one of my favorite Beauty and the Beast quotes.
In English, yesterday, while we were supposed to be doing some stupid grammar worksheet (though if you read this blog, you may think I should pay a bit more attention to said worksheet!) a few girls and I were talking about things that are awkward. Eventually, it was decided we needed our own SNL/Amanda Bynes/book called "That's Awkward".
Current topics of discussion:
--guys who wear their pants falling down so you can see their boxers. THAT is awkward. Ditto for girls and thongs/panties/anything else we REALLY don't want to see.
--choking (and coughing very loudly) on one's espresso in the library and having people staring to see if you are okay. (this is happening as I type) AWKWARD.
-- Personal pet peeve: men who hold the door open for you, than either proceed to stare intently at various parts of you. (trying to be descreet here...) or they stand sort of in the door so that you have to shimmy by while trying not to kill them with your giant bag. That is AWKWARD.
--gynecologists. Need I say more?? Awkward.
--I mentioned the eyebrow threading in the mall. However, one of the other girls gets her brows done there and says they're the best. Hmm. I still think the video they play= awkward. Also, people who gather around and stare while people are having them done. Awkward.
--lip rings are kind of awkward. tongue piercings too. how do you kiss?
Ohhh..I want to watch the Coco Chanel movie. Too bad I have no headphones with me today.
Someday...I am going to ditch school for an entire day. (This will probably be in college, haha) On a sunny, beautiful day, I am going to skip all my classes, wear a cute outfit, and run about wherever I happen to be exploring everything and feeling a tad bit naughty. Have espresso and cupcakes and buy baloons. *Nods* One cannot skip school without balloons.....
If only I could be like the Miss Dior Cherie girl and have a large handful of balloons to carry me away. If I do only one thing in life --- I want to fly out of here.
In English, yesterday, while we were supposed to be doing some stupid grammar worksheet (though if you read this blog, you may think I should pay a bit more attention to said worksheet!) a few girls and I were talking about things that are awkward. Eventually, it was decided we needed our own SNL/Amanda Bynes/book called "That's Awkward".
Current topics of discussion:
--guys who wear their pants falling down so you can see their boxers. THAT is awkward. Ditto for girls and thongs/panties/anything else we REALLY don't want to see.
--choking (and coughing very loudly) on one's espresso in the library and having people staring to see if you are okay. (this is happening as I type) AWKWARD.
-- Personal pet peeve: men who hold the door open for you, than either proceed to stare intently at various parts of you. (trying to be descreet here...) or they stand sort of in the door so that you have to shimmy by while trying not to kill them with your giant bag. That is AWKWARD.
--gynecologists. Need I say more?? Awkward.
--I mentioned the eyebrow threading in the mall. However, one of the other girls gets her brows done there and says they're the best. Hmm. I still think the video they play= awkward. Also, people who gather around and stare while people are having them done. Awkward.
--lip rings are kind of awkward. tongue piercings too. how do you kiss?
Ohhh..I want to watch the Coco Chanel movie. Too bad I have no headphones with me today.
Someday...I am going to ditch school for an entire day. (This will probably be in college, haha) On a sunny, beautiful day, I am going to skip all my classes, wear a cute outfit, and run about wherever I happen to be exploring everything and feeling a tad bit naughty. Have espresso and cupcakes and buy baloons. *Nods* One cannot skip school without balloons.....
If only I could be like the Miss Dior Cherie girl and have a large handful of balloons to carry me away. If I do only one thing in life --- I want to fly out of here.
Monday, April 13, 2009
here comes the sun??
--maybe, maybe not. I'm wearing a delightful spring dress, bare legs, and wedges. and a cardigan. which I could probably wear in the middle of summer and not be too warm. Where is my delightful sunshine???
I'm tired of thining about college, but I know I have to because its coming down to it. I'm so excited, in a way, but I'm so apprehensive. I'm anticipating the arguments (hopefully tame), the tears at me moving away; not to mention the drama of waiting for acceptance/denial letters and such.
I think I'm going to end up at PHC. I think I will be happy there. I will eat my pride.
Whether or not I want to, if that's what my mom and dad want, than that's what I'll do. With one disclaimer: if they don't transfer the majority of my units, than non. No can do. Not staying there (or anywhere) longer than 2 years. Basic requirement.
I'm thinking of looking into the Kings College too. I want to be in DC, I think. But I need to keep an open mind. It really depends on what I do after HS. If I go to law school, any location that has a superb college is fine. If I want to go into an internship, I'd prefer to be in DC.
I think summer should just come now.
I'm tired of thining about college, but I know I have to because its coming down to it. I'm so excited, in a way, but I'm so apprehensive. I'm anticipating the arguments (hopefully tame), the tears at me moving away; not to mention the drama of waiting for acceptance/denial letters and such.
I think I'm going to end up at PHC. I think I will be happy there. I will eat my pride.
Whether or not I want to, if that's what my mom and dad want, than that's what I'll do. With one disclaimer: if they don't transfer the majority of my units, than non. No can do. Not staying there (or anywhere) longer than 2 years. Basic requirement.
I'm thinking of looking into the Kings College too. I want to be in DC, I think. But I need to keep an open mind. It really depends on what I do after HS. If I go to law school, any location that has a superb college is fine. If I want to go into an internship, I'd prefer to be in DC.
I think summer should just come now.
Friday, April 3, 2009
hello, love
for you, Bethi:
I don't need summer, because I have you to make the sun shine.
I don't need words, because you're beyond all description.
I don't need food, because you fill my heart.
I don't need pictures, because I have our memories.
I don't need music, because your voice is beautiful.
I don't need my own family, because what's yours is also mine.
I don't need dreams, because you are one.
and I don't ever want to wake up.
I don't need summer, because I have you to make the sun shine.
I don't need words, because you're beyond all description.
I don't need food, because you fill my heart.
I don't need pictures, because I have our memories.
I don't need music, because your voice is beautiful.
I don't need my own family, because what's yours is also mine.
I don't need dreams, because you are one.
and I don't ever want to wake up.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
you make it easy
I really wish I could take it upon myself to bring headphones to school. I need music.
this made me laugh: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-CzNhym4a1JueyzMnlCy180RUYM7aeC8OlpWwZGVdYXQn2-5gkTgmOb9qZrvHWTY4iPX37HrHSNQMS5P2oEMn_d50Nm_TN_7bv_msA0fRqksUIL0eCN-ZTWx7QAY8gXfpDSgpPKkk6wE0/s1600-h/bananas.jpg
I don't condone stealing or lying; but people are funny things.
this made me laugh: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-CzNhym4a1JueyzMnlCy180RUYM7aeC8OlpWwZGVdYXQn2-5gkTgmOb9qZrvHWTY4iPX37HrHSNQMS5P2oEMn_d50Nm_TN_7bv_msA0fRqksUIL0eCN-ZTWx7QAY8gXfpDSgpPKkk6wE0/s1600-h/bananas.jpg
I don't condone stealing or lying; but people are funny things.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
i needed you, you didn't need me
its been a long day.
long days never get shorter, have you noticed? once something get's long....well, there it goes. when a day starts off feeling like its going fast...okay, never mind. when one doesn't make sense to ones self, its generally a sign of not making sense to other people. :-)
i have to write a huge paper and I'm procrastinating SO much.
ugg.
long days never get shorter, have you noticed? once something get's long....well, there it goes. when a day starts off feeling like its going fast...okay, never mind. when one doesn't make sense to ones self, its generally a sign of not making sense to other people. :-)
i have to write a huge paper and I'm procrastinating SO much.
ugg.
Monday, March 30, 2009
how did you know just where I would be?
its Monday.
Another week.
2 months left of the school year, and next week is Spring Break. Yay! I'm looking forward to summer. I'm going to get a job, take English and Philosophy online, (hopefully) travel to Washington DC for about 2 weeks, and spend another week at Patrick Henry College participating in their International Relations camp. I'm excited. Of course.
I'm thinking about college, as always. its hard to believe that in a month I'm taking the SAT's, and than this summer i'll be starting on my applications. I'm planning on applying to American University, George Washington U, Georgetown, PHC....and we'll see. I want to be in Washington more than anything, I think. I don't know. New York has its perks too. But I'm not sure how much the city life is for me. In DC, I envision myself being able to have my city life-- go shopping, go to museums, go running in the mornings through the National Mall, eat in cafes, be cultured--and than still be able to drive (or Metro) out to Alexandria or Williamsburg where stuff is laid back. There's just something about it that I love and want to have. Between the three DC schools there's so much to consider. I don't even know where to begin. I suppose applying first would be a good start.
I left my headphones at home this morning. :-( So no music today.
This morning I got to get dressed up like a ballerina and 'teach' a little class of preschool girls at the preschool co-op at church. They were adorable: all dressed up in ballet clothes. I knew a few of them from various events. I decided I want a little girl.
Spring break....yay. I wish I was going somewhere, elsewhere.
I love when people say they are "done" with something. I took to saying this oh so charming phrase a few months back. Its so illogical though. One usually says it at the end of a rant "I am so done with...." But really. Your not done. Your never done. As long as something bothers you- you aren't done.
But now, I'm done
with this post.
Another week.
2 months left of the school year, and next week is Spring Break. Yay! I'm looking forward to summer. I'm going to get a job, take English and Philosophy online, (hopefully) travel to Washington DC for about 2 weeks, and spend another week at Patrick Henry College participating in their International Relations camp. I'm excited. Of course.
I'm thinking about college, as always. its hard to believe that in a month I'm taking the SAT's, and than this summer i'll be starting on my applications. I'm planning on applying to American University, George Washington U, Georgetown, PHC....and we'll see. I want to be in Washington more than anything, I think. I don't know. New York has its perks too. But I'm not sure how much the city life is for me. In DC, I envision myself being able to have my city life-- go shopping, go to museums, go running in the mornings through the National Mall, eat in cafes, be cultured--and than still be able to drive (or Metro) out to Alexandria or Williamsburg where stuff is laid back. There's just something about it that I love and want to have. Between the three DC schools there's so much to consider. I don't even know where to begin. I suppose applying first would be a good start.
I left my headphones at home this morning. :-( So no music today.
This morning I got to get dressed up like a ballerina and 'teach' a little class of preschool girls at the preschool co-op at church. They were adorable: all dressed up in ballet clothes. I knew a few of them from various events. I decided I want a little girl.
Spring break....yay. I wish I was going somewhere, elsewhere.
I love when people say they are "done" with something. I took to saying this oh so charming phrase a few months back. Its so illogical though. One usually says it at the end of a rant "I am so done with...." But really. Your not done. Your never done. As long as something bothers you- you aren't done.
But now, I'm done
with this post.
Monday, March 23, 2009
a quiz, because its been a while
What is your name?
Natasha Victoria (I do have a last name)....or Tashi as I seem to be referred too most.
What do you wish you were named?
My favorite name is Emma Rose. I don't know if I wish that were my name, but I love it. And use it at Starbucks.
What hair colour were you born with, and what colour is your hair now?
I looked exactly like Barbie's little sister, Kelly, at about 3. Platinum blonde hair. Thankfully, its now a honey blonde. (I don't want Barbie hair, really)
Pick one food and one drink to survive off of for the rest of your life.
Iced vanilla coffee and pasta. (I pretty much survive exclusively off this anyhow)
If you could be one woman, who would you be and why?
I kind of like being myself; but I really like Betty Ford. And Audrey Hepburn.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
First, a campaign manager. Than, a white house intern. Eventually, chief of staff. Than, a senator. Sometime in there throw in mommy, lawyer, journalist, and college professor.
Where do you live? Do you like it there?
I live in suburbia. If you have ever seen the movie "Stuck in the Suburbs" it should have been filmed here. I love the city. i love culture. as such, I do not love here.
Do you ever feel like a cliché? Why?
oh yes. I am such a teenager. I want to get out of here, I want to be 'free', I want to change the world.....
Describe one person who broke your heart in four words.
gentleman, handsome, kind, thoughtful, perfect.
What do you like to do?
Talk to friends, dance, write, read everything, watch movies. model. read.
Who do you think are the most stylish people?
Audrey, of course...other than that, I dunno really. The Stylish Wanderer, perhaps.
Who is your favourite designer?
Chanel and Marc Jacobs.
You have no budget. What are your favourite stores?
Urban Outfitters, Nordstroms (Marc, Betsey Johnson), JCrew, Banana Republic
You have a budget. What are your favourite stores?
Forever 21, American Eagle, Buffalo Exchange, thrift stores, Marshalls/Ross
Name one fashion item that you can’t live without.
red heels. the best touch to any outfit.
Tell us three things that make you beautiful.
my multidimentional personality, my eyes, my ability to make the most mundane things memorable
Favourite colour?
pink, red, turqoise
Favourite band to listen to?
as of now, Plain White T's and Coldplay.
What music inspires you the most?
the above, John Lennon, Mozart, Relient K...everything really.
Natasha Victoria (I do have a last name)....or Tashi as I seem to be referred too most.
What do you wish you were named?
My favorite name is Emma Rose. I don't know if I wish that were my name, but I love it. And use it at Starbucks.
What hair colour were you born with, and what colour is your hair now?
I looked exactly like Barbie's little sister, Kelly, at about 3. Platinum blonde hair. Thankfully, its now a honey blonde. (I don't want Barbie hair, really)
Pick one food and one drink to survive off of for the rest of your life.
Iced vanilla coffee and pasta. (I pretty much survive exclusively off this anyhow)
If you could be one woman, who would you be and why?
I kind of like being myself; but I really like Betty Ford. And Audrey Hepburn.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
First, a campaign manager. Than, a white house intern. Eventually, chief of staff. Than, a senator. Sometime in there throw in mommy, lawyer, journalist, and college professor.
Where do you live? Do you like it there?
I live in suburbia. If you have ever seen the movie "Stuck in the Suburbs" it should have been filmed here. I love the city. i love culture. as such, I do not love here.
Do you ever feel like a cliché? Why?
oh yes. I am such a teenager. I want to get out of here, I want to be 'free', I want to change the world.....
Describe one person who broke your heart in four words.
gentleman, handsome, kind, thoughtful, perfect.
What do you like to do?
Talk to friends, dance, write, read everything, watch movies. model. read.
Who do you think are the most stylish people?
Audrey, of course...other than that, I dunno really. The Stylish Wanderer, perhaps.
Who is your favourite designer?
Chanel and Marc Jacobs.
You have no budget. What are your favourite stores?
Urban Outfitters, Nordstroms (Marc, Betsey Johnson), JCrew, Banana Republic
You have a budget. What are your favourite stores?
Forever 21, American Eagle, Buffalo Exchange, thrift stores, Marshalls/Ross
Name one fashion item that you can’t live without.
red heels. the best touch to any outfit.
Tell us three things that make you beautiful.
my multidimentional personality, my eyes, my ability to make the most mundane things memorable
Favourite colour?
pink, red, turqoise
Favourite band to listen to?
as of now, Plain White T's and Coldplay.
What music inspires you the most?
the above, John Lennon, Mozart, Relient K...everything really.
zig-zag, cross the floor, shuffle in diagnol
I spent nearly an hour yesterday trying to teach myself the Hannah Montana "Hoedown Showdown Dance"
it took about 10 times of following along the youtube video for me to even look like I was doing anything close to the hoedown showdown....
nevertheless, i can't wait for the movie. yes, i am pathetic.
it took about 10 times of following along the youtube video for me to even look like I was doing anything close to the hoedown showdown....
nevertheless, i can't wait for the movie. yes, i am pathetic.
i wish i could drive because than i could fly
"there is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered"
--Nelson Mandela
--Nelson Mandela
you are what you love
...so I am an umbrella.
OMG, this is SO awesome: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBlgZbQIio66POO2s2buea-9yAT_20d4dmspi-LgxD3T9mDRAL4YBDBuC5P0xxND02DPoZzdVs4TwdwUG4Y5jVB2r47PNp3oOS4vB3y0YJbyy6AqsYjM2mB3qHfq3CML2miJ0vcvHCT07e/s1600-h/pedicab5.jpg
they rented pedicabs for their wedding to carry all the guests about! How cool is that???
I've never taken a pedicab, though they abound in San Diego. *New life goal: Ride pedicab*
OH! So the best day of my life happened on Friday:
About 14 months ago, I became the proud owner of red polka-dot rainboots and a polka-dotted umbrella. They were beautiful, and I did a photoshoot with them in the pouring rain. That night, I went to church and accidently left my umbrella in the foyer. I realized my mistake 10 minutes after leaving, and rushed back to the church. To my dismay, the church was now locked. I called my friend Taylor and her dad (who works at the church) promised to check for me the next day.
No luck. I than checked the lost and found on Sunday. No luck. I checked on Wed. No luck. I checked twice a week for nearly five months. (In this time I returned numerous Bibles to people who had lost them--karma, people..JK) I told the story of my missing baby to anyone who would listen. Every time it rained I lamented the story of my poor umbrella to all who would listen. I spent days standing in the rain, getting soaked, looking up at the sky...all the time wondering "where are you? how could you go?"
My faith in humanity was nearly shattered. Who steals a polka dot umbrella? From a church? When its raining?? What is the world coming too? I know, people murder other people everday. But to steal a little girl's umbrella? *How could you be so heartless?* My hope was gone; yet I never bought another umbrella. I toughed it out in the rain. (my classmates have told me I look like a wet dog...)
And, than, on Friday night, I went to a Chasing Cadence concert at church. The music was great, Bethi got to go, and we were all just singing and hanging out. Fabulous stuff. (I really liked the outfit I threw together, another plus). We took a short intermission about half way through and I went to get some tea. I come back and am making my way back to the "mosh pit" when, on stage, the drummer comes out from backstage twirling a polka dot umbrella over his shoulder.
That moment was one of those you see in movies. When the entire world is running past you in chaos but all you see is your one true love. And than- I screamed at the top of my lungs, and the moment was broken. I ran onto the stage and was like "Ohmygoshthat'smyumbrellailostitmonthsagoanditsmyfavoritethinglikeverohmygoshthankyousomuch!!!!"
the drummer, who is now my greatest hero, gave me a high five and handed my umbrella to me, where it stayed in my arms the rest of the night.
the craziest parts of this:
-had the umbrella stayed in the lost and found one more week, it would have been taken to the Goodwill
-some of my friends had seen the umbrella back there, yet not attributed it to me. (its okay, lesson learned: the next time you lose something, make LOST: posters)
-had the drummer merely seen the umbrella back there and had a chuckle, than left it, i would not be in the state of joyous reveling that I am in now, and for forever.
I am so blessed.
oh, and thank you mr. drummer dude. you probably think i am out of mind; but you have changed my life forever.
OMG, this is SO awesome: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBlgZbQIio66POO2s2buea-9yAT_20d4dmspi-LgxD3T9mDRAL4YBDBuC5P0xxND02DPoZzdVs4TwdwUG4Y5jVB2r47PNp3oOS4vB3y0YJbyy6AqsYjM2mB3qHfq3CML2miJ0vcvHCT07e/s1600-h/pedicab5.jpg
they rented pedicabs for their wedding to carry all the guests about! How cool is that???
I've never taken a pedicab, though they abound in San Diego. *New life goal: Ride pedicab*
OH! So the best day of my life happened on Friday:
About 14 months ago, I became the proud owner of red polka-dot rainboots and a polka-dotted umbrella. They were beautiful, and I did a photoshoot with them in the pouring rain. That night, I went to church and accidently left my umbrella in the foyer. I realized my mistake 10 minutes after leaving, and rushed back to the church. To my dismay, the church was now locked. I called my friend Taylor and her dad (who works at the church) promised to check for me the next day.
No luck. I than checked the lost and found on Sunday. No luck. I checked on Wed. No luck. I checked twice a week for nearly five months. (In this time I returned numerous Bibles to people who had lost them--karma, people..JK) I told the story of my missing baby to anyone who would listen. Every time it rained I lamented the story of my poor umbrella to all who would listen. I spent days standing in the rain, getting soaked, looking up at the sky...all the time wondering "where are you? how could you go?"
My faith in humanity was nearly shattered. Who steals a polka dot umbrella? From a church? When its raining?? What is the world coming too? I know, people murder other people everday. But to steal a little girl's umbrella? *How could you be so heartless?* My hope was gone; yet I never bought another umbrella. I toughed it out in the rain. (my classmates have told me I look like a wet dog...)
And, than, on Friday night, I went to a Chasing Cadence concert at church. The music was great, Bethi got to go, and we were all just singing and hanging out. Fabulous stuff. (I really liked the outfit I threw together, another plus). We took a short intermission about half way through and I went to get some tea. I come back and am making my way back to the "mosh pit" when, on stage, the drummer comes out from backstage twirling a polka dot umbrella over his shoulder.
That moment was one of those you see in movies. When the entire world is running past you in chaos but all you see is your one true love. And than- I screamed at the top of my lungs, and the moment was broken. I ran onto the stage and was like "Ohmygoshthat'smyumbrellailostitmonthsagoanditsmyfavoritethinglikeverohmygoshthankyousomuch!!!!"
the drummer, who is now my greatest hero, gave me a high five and handed my umbrella to me, where it stayed in my arms the rest of the night.
the craziest parts of this:
-had the umbrella stayed in the lost and found one more week, it would have been taken to the Goodwill
-some of my friends had seen the umbrella back there, yet not attributed it to me. (its okay, lesson learned: the next time you lose something, make LOST: posters)
-had the drummer merely seen the umbrella back there and had a chuckle, than left it, i would not be in the state of joyous reveling that I am in now, and for forever.
I am so blessed.
oh, and thank you mr. drummer dude. you probably think i am out of mind; but you have changed my life forever.
Friday, March 20, 2009
how do i get better once i've had the best?
What would have on your headstone?
Here lies Princess Tashi
What's your dream car?
I have one for each stage of my life. Currently, I'd like a mini Cooper. That would get me through college. I'd than like a BMW...preferably red. I would than like a Cadillac Escalde to hall the kiddies about. Than a Jaguar for my mid-life crisis. And than, a Bentley for my elderly years.
)Q Is pornography morally wrong? Yes. Aside from morals (which are important, lol)..really. Its disgusting.
Write the opening line of a wonderful novel:
Once upon a time there lived a beautiful princess named Natasha. She got married, became First Lady, and lived happily ever after. (There, I wrote the whole book).
What's the best music video ever?The Love Story music video is one of my favorites (Taylor Swift).
Q If you had a big win in the lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
About five seconds. I don't really keep stuff like that to myself.
Do you carry a donor card? Why (or why not)? No. I can't donate blood without parental consent, and my mom won't give consent becuase she is (quite acurately) convicned that if I did donate blood I would faint dead away immeadielty following.
Where would you like to retire? Paris.
Q What is something you wish you were better at doing?
Math. It would make my life so much easier. Or remembering facts.
Q. What colour do you prefer your pens to write?
Pink...
Are babies cute?
Oui, Oui. So adorable.
Q Do you subscribe to a magazine? If so, what?
I get some stupid dance magazine. daddy's getting me a subscription to Newsweek. I'd love a subscription to Vogue, but alas.
Q What's your favorite shape?
Lack thereof. OH! You mean as in geometric shape. Heart.
Q What was the last thing you used a microwave for?
Making bombs *AHEM* cooking potstickers.
Q What book are you reading?
The Communist Manifesto, Karl Marx. Along with Foucault, a book about child abuse, The Feminine Mystique, and Sense and Sensibility.
Q Do you like rollercoasters?
Yeah. I just feel incredibly sick after a day at Magic Mountan. I'd rather go sky diving.
Q Which came first – the chicken or the egg?
The chicken.
Q Cite a song lyric that means something to you:
how do I get better once I've had the best?
Q What's the best photo you've ever taken?
Hah. They all pretty much stink. But I have one of the castle at Disneyland that I love.
Q Write a new couch gag for the opening credits of The Simpsons
Out of all the things I despise, The Simpsons is near the top. Along with Family Guy, King of the Hill, South Park and all those equally inane shows.
Tell me a knock knock joke
I don't know any. :D
Describe yourself in five words:
Intelligent, silly, adorable, discontent, insightful.
Q Who should play James Bond now that the role is vacant?
Christian Bale or James Franco.
Q What comic book (or cartoon) character would you be? Why?
ideally, Belle. I love to read, I enjoy dancing through fields singing. However, someone told me I would be the babysitter from the Incredibles. Gee. Thanks.
What's the oldest thing you own?
Myself. Or Frisky, the stuffed dog I've owned since I was three.
Q What's your favourite word?
Love, fabulous, whimsical.
Q What word(s) do you hate?
Ya know. I HATE when people say "ya know?" when speaking. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. NO. WE DON'T KNOW. THAT'S WHY YOUR TALKING.
Here lies Princess Tashi
What's your dream car?
I have one for each stage of my life. Currently, I'd like a mini Cooper. That would get me through college. I'd than like a BMW...preferably red. I would than like a Cadillac Escalde to hall the kiddies about. Than a Jaguar for my mid-life crisis. And than, a Bentley for my elderly years.
)Q Is pornography morally wrong? Yes. Aside from morals (which are important, lol)..really. Its disgusting.
Write the opening line of a wonderful novel:
Once upon a time there lived a beautiful princess named Natasha. She got married, became First Lady, and lived happily ever after. (There, I wrote the whole book).
What's the best music video ever?The Love Story music video is one of my favorites (Taylor Swift).
Q If you had a big win in the lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
About five seconds. I don't really keep stuff like that to myself.
Do you carry a donor card? Why (or why not)? No. I can't donate blood without parental consent, and my mom won't give consent becuase she is (quite acurately) convicned that if I did donate blood I would faint dead away immeadielty following.
Where would you like to retire? Paris.
Q What is something you wish you were better at doing?
Math. It would make my life so much easier. Or remembering facts.
Q. What colour do you prefer your pens to write?
Pink...
Are babies cute?
Oui, Oui. So adorable.
Q Do you subscribe to a magazine? If so, what?
I get some stupid dance magazine. daddy's getting me a subscription to Newsweek. I'd love a subscription to Vogue, but alas.
Q What's your favorite shape?
Lack thereof. OH! You mean as in geometric shape. Heart.
Q What was the last thing you used a microwave for?
Making bombs *AHEM* cooking potstickers.
Q What book are you reading?
The Communist Manifesto, Karl Marx. Along with Foucault, a book about child abuse, The Feminine Mystique, and Sense and Sensibility.
Q Do you like rollercoasters?
Yeah. I just feel incredibly sick after a day at Magic Mountan. I'd rather go sky diving.
Q Which came first – the chicken or the egg?
The chicken.
Q Cite a song lyric that means something to you:
how do I get better once I've had the best?
Q What's the best photo you've ever taken?
Hah. They all pretty much stink. But I have one of the castle at Disneyland that I love.
Q Write a new couch gag for the opening credits of The Simpsons
Out of all the things I despise, The Simpsons is near the top. Along with Family Guy, King of the Hill, South Park and all those equally inane shows.
Tell me a knock knock joke
I don't know any. :D
Describe yourself in five words:
Intelligent, silly, adorable, discontent, insightful.
Q Who should play James Bond now that the role is vacant?
Christian Bale or James Franco.
Q What comic book (or cartoon) character would you be? Why?
ideally, Belle. I love to read, I enjoy dancing through fields singing. However, someone told me I would be the babysitter from the Incredibles. Gee. Thanks.
What's the oldest thing you own?
Myself. Or Frisky, the stuffed dog I've owned since I was three.
Q What's your favourite word?
Love, fabulous, whimsical.
Q What word(s) do you hate?
Ya know. I HATE when people say "ya know?" when speaking. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. NO. WE DON'T KNOW. THAT'S WHY YOUR TALKING.
instead i'm losing it...
My friends call me an airhead. One of my best friends tells me about 40 times a day that I'm stupid. I always protest that I really am not stupid. Really. See, its not that I'm stupid. So yeah, I can't put on a bracelet without help. I miss the trashcan every time I try to toss my coffee cup in. I use words at the wrong time, or I have extremely brilliant thoughts that I can't put into words. I fail math, geography, and vocabulary quizes. I never turn things in on the right day (I just charm my teachers into not taking off points...)
But I'm not stupid. I mantain fabulous grades in the classes I care about (and at least B's in the others. Last semester would be the exception to all this). In my spare time I read the LA Times, Newsweek, The Economist, and WORLD. (Unlike Ms. Palin, I know the publications I read). I read a ton, actually. I'm actually well educated and informed. My life does not just consist of fashion, coffee, music, and dreaming of my Prince Charming. That's just the part that gets shown off more. I do so much more than skip around town in fancy dresses. Really. :D
I woke up 15 minutes before I needed to be at school today. I had a black camisole on, and over it I threw on a blue striped DKNY shirt that happens to be my father's. I rolled up and buttoned the sleeves, tucked the extremely long ends into light blue skinny jeans, and threw on some comfy Target hats. And a pearl bracelet and black beret before running out the door. My hair is kind of nice and yet gross at the same time. (Leftover hairspray and wavy curls).
Now, to make this story more effective, you have to understand yesterday. Yesterday I woke up an hour and a half before school. I curled my hair, I carefully pulled out black stockings, a black dress, black wedges, a charcoal Calvin Klein blazer, and dug through my jewlery box for jewelry. I did my makeup- more than the powder and mascara that seems to it lately. I made an effort.
Yesterday, one person told me they liked my outfit. Today? Probably 10 people.
And its not about compliments to me, so I don't really care, but this happens all the time (to everyone, I know) and it makes me laugh. As long as I'm not wearing a Hollister henley and UGGs everyday; I love what I wear.
I love Friday's. Especially when I get out at 11. I want to go shopping. I want money. I want Grandpa. :D I actually do want to go visit my grandparents. I miss them.
I'm debating the shorts delimna. Things like shorts, in my mind, require plannning. You cannot just throw on a pair of shorts. You have to shave, and use lotion, and hope that you're still in shape. In the words of the most hilarious story ever told to me "We do not just rush into things like...wearing shorts. We have to pray about this."
But I'm not stupid. I mantain fabulous grades in the classes I care about (and at least B's in the others. Last semester would be the exception to all this). In my spare time I read the LA Times, Newsweek, The Economist, and WORLD. (Unlike Ms. Palin, I know the publications I read). I read a ton, actually. I'm actually well educated and informed. My life does not just consist of fashion, coffee, music, and dreaming of my Prince Charming. That's just the part that gets shown off more. I do so much more than skip around town in fancy dresses. Really. :D
I woke up 15 minutes before I needed to be at school today. I had a black camisole on, and over it I threw on a blue striped DKNY shirt that happens to be my father's. I rolled up and buttoned the sleeves, tucked the extremely long ends into light blue skinny jeans, and threw on some comfy Target hats. And a pearl bracelet and black beret before running out the door. My hair is kind of nice and yet gross at the same time. (Leftover hairspray and wavy curls).
Now, to make this story more effective, you have to understand yesterday. Yesterday I woke up an hour and a half before school. I curled my hair, I carefully pulled out black stockings, a black dress, black wedges, a charcoal Calvin Klein blazer, and dug through my jewlery box for jewelry. I did my makeup- more than the powder and mascara that seems to it lately. I made an effort.
Yesterday, one person told me they liked my outfit. Today? Probably 10 people.
And its not about compliments to me, so I don't really care, but this happens all the time (to everyone, I know) and it makes me laugh. As long as I'm not wearing a Hollister henley and UGGs everyday; I love what I wear.
I love Friday's. Especially when I get out at 11. I want to go shopping. I want money. I want Grandpa. :D I actually do want to go visit my grandparents. I miss them.
I'm debating the shorts delimna. Things like shorts, in my mind, require plannning. You cannot just throw on a pair of shorts. You have to shave, and use lotion, and hope that you're still in shape. In the words of the most hilarious story ever told to me "We do not just rush into things like...wearing shorts. We have to pray about this."
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
what's it like in new york city?
One of my favorite songs of all time. its so dreamy and beautiful. what is it like in new york city?
in one of my more witty moments I once said "there must be more than this suburban life" i.e. a reference to Beauty and the Beast. I was sitting in the parking lot this morning and I look over the freeway and the hills and I just want to fly away. I wish I could start running and just see where i end up. (I wish I could run that long, haha. i would probably be a size or two smaller in jeans!)
I feel right now that life is an enigma of things to be learned. In the midst of my studies I'm devouring books. I've moved into the library. So many books (though never enough) all representing the topics that compose life.
I want to learn French. I have said this before, but I really do every day regret not taking French. I want to learn it. And I should. It's not as if I've ever shown any natural talent for foreign language. (I don't show much natural talent for anything, ha, except for reading, I suppose). But oh well. I will learn French someday.
the number of things I will do someday grows greater every day.
in one of my more witty moments I once said "there must be more than this suburban life" i.e. a reference to Beauty and the Beast. I was sitting in the parking lot this morning and I look over the freeway and the hills and I just want to fly away. I wish I could start running and just see where i end up. (I wish I could run that long, haha. i would probably be a size or two smaller in jeans!)
I feel right now that life is an enigma of things to be learned. In the midst of my studies I'm devouring books. I've moved into the library. So many books (though never enough) all representing the topics that compose life.
I want to learn French. I have said this before, but I really do every day regret not taking French. I want to learn it. And I should. It's not as if I've ever shown any natural talent for foreign language. (I don't show much natural talent for anything, ha, except for reading, I suppose). But oh well. I will learn French someday.
the number of things I will do someday grows greater every day.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
hold me close..cause i'm your tiny dancer
I just finished the most exhausting dance class of my entire life. Everything hurts. A lot. I sucked. A lot. I really really really need sleep. I've gotten <7 hours every single night for the last 5 days. Tomorrow I have a half day, basically, and when I get out..AH. Heaven. Than I have MUN all day on Sat. I'm nervous but excited.
Everything in my life seems to be a combination of two feelings. I'm never 100% anything.
Did you know you can make custom Vans? OMG. SO awesome!
you can get really far in life by being sweetly adorable. its my life lesson this week.
Everything in my life seems to be a combination of two feelings. I'm never 100% anything.
Did you know you can make custom Vans? OMG. SO awesome!
you can get really far in life by being sweetly adorable. its my life lesson this week.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
i need to feel you here with me.
so, i've never written about this on here before.
but since its a huge part of who i am,
i think its kind of important.
Its hard to begin because I don't know where it started.
My grandma was the most amazing person I have ever met and will ever meet. I loved her so much. I loved visiting her; I loved just sitting around and talking. We had times where we did really fun stuff- like go to the zoo or swimming or out to eat. But those aren't the days that stand out the most. Its the days where we stayed home doing work (but it didn't feel like work), eating food, and talking. We didn't need to do anything. I remember sitting in a recliner next to her for hours at time, perhaps looking at photos or reading Readers Digest. Her home felt like my home. She made you feel like you were the specialest person in the world. And she made every single person who ever met her feel that way too. She told me stories, she gave me advice, and she asked questions. She listened. She listened in a way that no one else could. She always understood. She always cared. She was never selfish. Ever. When someone dies its easy to than picture them as perfect. But I believed it before she died. And I always will.
and than way to soon, it was over. I said goodbye in September, 2008, out of neccesity. The goodbye was made for real in November. On a grim day in November that dreaded last phone call came. I spent that day crying and every night thereafter. The next three days were some of the most dreadful I have ever experienced. Normally death, particularly of an amazing person, makes those closest to that person unite and stand together. Or everyone is in so much pain that they have to find someway to deal with it. Its so hard not to be sarcastic when I write this because I hate how people behaved. And I can't find the words to express that hatred except through sarcasm, which I feel isn't right. Sarcasm doesn't express it either. It was horrible. Basically, my parents and I (except not really me..but..) got uninvited to the funeral/memorial. Well, never mind. We weren't uninvited. We just weren't invited. Well, we were invited. We just were told not to say a thing. Which was so unfair for so many reasons. (Such a mess!) People who I loved more than anyone on earth behaved towards me so awfully. It hurts too much to even describe it. Its not what I want to think about. Its not how I want to remember them. But its what they left me with.
Its amazing how people change. Seemingly overnight. One day you're walking together and laughing in the breeze and the next they declare a cold war. I hate the feelings of shock. The bitter cold that comes from feeling completely alone. The shaking. Realizing that the phrase "miss someone so much that it hurts" is one hundred percent acurate. That deep ache. And I hate how just thinking about it makes it all come back.
There is so much more to this story. but not right now.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
but since its a huge part of who i am,
i think its kind of important.
Its hard to begin because I don't know where it started.
My grandma was the most amazing person I have ever met and will ever meet. I loved her so much. I loved visiting her; I loved just sitting around and talking. We had times where we did really fun stuff- like go to the zoo or swimming or out to eat. But those aren't the days that stand out the most. Its the days where we stayed home doing work (but it didn't feel like work), eating food, and talking. We didn't need to do anything. I remember sitting in a recliner next to her for hours at time, perhaps looking at photos or reading Readers Digest. Her home felt like my home. She made you feel like you were the specialest person in the world. And she made every single person who ever met her feel that way too. She told me stories, she gave me advice, and she asked questions. She listened. She listened in a way that no one else could. She always understood. She always cared. She was never selfish. Ever. When someone dies its easy to than picture them as perfect. But I believed it before she died. And I always will.
and than way to soon, it was over. I said goodbye in September, 2008, out of neccesity. The goodbye was made for real in November. On a grim day in November that dreaded last phone call came. I spent that day crying and every night thereafter. The next three days were some of the most dreadful I have ever experienced. Normally death, particularly of an amazing person, makes those closest to that person unite and stand together. Or everyone is in so much pain that they have to find someway to deal with it. Its so hard not to be sarcastic when I write this because I hate how people behaved. And I can't find the words to express that hatred except through sarcasm, which I feel isn't right. Sarcasm doesn't express it either. It was horrible. Basically, my parents and I (except not really me..but..) got uninvited to the funeral/memorial. Well, never mind. We weren't uninvited. We just weren't invited. Well, we were invited. We just were told not to say a thing. Which was so unfair for so many reasons. (Such a mess!) People who I loved more than anyone on earth behaved towards me so awfully. It hurts too much to even describe it. Its not what I want to think about. Its not how I want to remember them. But its what they left me with.
Its amazing how people change. Seemingly overnight. One day you're walking together and laughing in the breeze and the next they declare a cold war. I hate the feelings of shock. The bitter cold that comes from feeling completely alone. The shaking. Realizing that the phrase "miss someone so much that it hurts" is one hundred percent acurate. That deep ache. And I hate how just thinking about it makes it all come back.
There is so much more to this story. but not right now.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day
i miss you.
If something was wrong, who is the first boy you would go to?
kyle. maybe daniel.
Who is the first girl you'd go to?
Bethi. always.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
eh. no. i don't want to collect admirers. and there's no one i'd want.
Are you listening to anything?
Avril Lavigne. I like the song When You're Gone
Favorite smell?
the smell of my grandma's house and her. i have one old nightgown that she had tucked away in a drawer and it still smells exactly like her. and every so often i pull it out and inhale and cry and wish that we could go back. i dread the day the smell fades away.
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
hmmhmm. people can lie.
Is there one thing/anyone that is on your mind constantly?
fashion, politics, God, and the future.
Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Bethi and I are moving to DC together and getting a loft. right, hun? :-) the whole we-like-dudes- A LOT- thing might ruin out plans. :D
What's something you eat or drink people would think is gross?oh gosh. welcome to my life- my parents are health nuts. I love seaweed. Straight, salted, seaweed. Yeah. I also like squid. I have the oddest eating habits.
How many people have you really loved?Love is such a strange, big, wonderful, hard to define concept.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?very much. and in person is even better.
What’s your hair look like today?
nice and clean (rare!), just down with a big black headband that has a bow on it.
How many piercings do you have and where?
ears. never anything more.
Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
so much that I feel like i will never be able to grow up and move on with my life without fixing them.
Who was the last guy you had a conversation with?
ummmmmmm............daniel.
Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
yeah, actually. and that kind of freaks me out.
Do you fall for people easily?
oh my goodness..it really trips me up. heehee. i'm so punny.
Are you missing someone right now?
forever and always.
What are you doing tonight?
an English paper on the Great Gatsby, finishing touches on position paper for MUN, taking off my acrylics (finally!), and hopefully watching some TV and relaxing.
Do you secretly like anyone?
maybe. its such a secret that I don't even know.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
i know i could.
What are you wearing right now?
black knitted dress (Target), burgundy cardigan (American Eagle), black tights, tall flat black boots (Payless), and black peacoat (Mervyns).
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
hopefully, seeing as I am in public.
Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
yeah. long story. that could really come off badly in writing.
What kind of mood are you in?
happily sad.
Are you satisfied with your life right now?
yeah. through all my complaining and hating situations; my life is amazing. its a gift. and I am SO grateful.
Plans for tomorrow?
school...homework..youth group.
What would you do if you won the lottery?
its currently at 12 million. SO. First, I'd buy a loft in DC and a large house in countryside Massachusets. Than, I'd buy some staples: Hermes bag, Chanel LBD, Christian Loubutins....After that, I'd adopt four kids from foster care, build a private school in some deprived area where I'd give full scholarships to impoverished kids, and probably just walk through Hollywood taking homeless people to lunch.
Do you regret anything from your past?
i regret the very, very, wrong decisions other people have made.
but i couldn't/can't really do a thing about it.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
Probably not.
In the past week have you smiled?
Only about every three minutes.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
yeah. daddy. and i've said it in my heart to a bunch.
Do you think too much or too little?
way too much.
Have you thought of baby names?
Emma Rose, Jack Darcy and Lilly Anne.
Describe yourself in one word:me
If something was wrong, who is the first boy you would go to?
kyle. maybe daniel.
Who is the first girl you'd go to?
Bethi. always.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
eh. no. i don't want to collect admirers. and there's no one i'd want.
Are you listening to anything?
Avril Lavigne. I like the song When You're Gone
Favorite smell?
the smell of my grandma's house and her. i have one old nightgown that she had tucked away in a drawer and it still smells exactly like her. and every so often i pull it out and inhale and cry and wish that we could go back. i dread the day the smell fades away.
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
hmmhmm. people can lie.
Is there one thing/anyone that is on your mind constantly?
fashion, politics, God, and the future.
Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Bethi and I are moving to DC together and getting a loft. right, hun? :-) the whole we-like-dudes- A LOT- thing might ruin out plans. :D
What's something you eat or drink people would think is gross?oh gosh. welcome to my life- my parents are health nuts. I love seaweed. Straight, salted, seaweed. Yeah. I also like squid. I have the oddest eating habits.
How many people have you really loved?Love is such a strange, big, wonderful, hard to define concept.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?very much. and in person is even better.
What’s your hair look like today?
nice and clean (rare!), just down with a big black headband that has a bow on it.
How many piercings do you have and where?
ears. never anything more.
Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
so much that I feel like i will never be able to grow up and move on with my life without fixing them.
Who was the last guy you had a conversation with?
ummmmmmm............daniel.
Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
yeah, actually. and that kind of freaks me out.
Do you fall for people easily?
oh my goodness..it really trips me up. heehee. i'm so punny.
Are you missing someone right now?
forever and always.
What are you doing tonight?
an English paper on the Great Gatsby, finishing touches on position paper for MUN, taking off my acrylics (finally!), and hopefully watching some TV and relaxing.
Do you secretly like anyone?
maybe. its such a secret that I don't even know.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
i know i could.
What are you wearing right now?
black knitted dress (Target), burgundy cardigan (American Eagle), black tights, tall flat black boots (Payless), and black peacoat (Mervyns).
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
hopefully, seeing as I am in public.
Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
yeah. long story. that could really come off badly in writing.
What kind of mood are you in?
happily sad.
Are you satisfied with your life right now?
yeah. through all my complaining and hating situations; my life is amazing. its a gift. and I am SO grateful.
Plans for tomorrow?
school...homework..youth group.
What would you do if you won the lottery?
its currently at 12 million. SO. First, I'd buy a loft in DC and a large house in countryside Massachusets. Than, I'd buy some staples: Hermes bag, Chanel LBD, Christian Loubutins....After that, I'd adopt four kids from foster care, build a private school in some deprived area where I'd give full scholarships to impoverished kids, and probably just walk through Hollywood taking homeless people to lunch.
Do you regret anything from your past?
i regret the very, very, wrong decisions other people have made.
but i couldn't/can't really do a thing about it.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
Probably not.
In the past week have you smiled?
Only about every three minutes.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
yeah. daddy. and i've said it in my heart to a bunch.
Do you think too much or too little?
way too much.
Have you thought of baby names?
Emma Rose, Jack Darcy and Lilly Anne.
Describe yourself in one word:me
i never will..never again
My friends joke about me living at school. Its pretty close to the truth. I spend about 3 hours (conscious) in my house each day. and about 9 (hopefully) dead to the world. I rarely make my bed. I rarely make my bed or clean my room. Its such a change from just last year. Which seems SO long ago. This past year was THE longest one of my life. I don't know if anything could beat it. I don't even remember doing school last year. It seems like I'm looking back at a completely different person.
Okay, I am kind of looking back at a completely different person.
I love this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bap-oZI-Grc&feature=channel I just adore when she's throwing his stuff out the window. (I would NEVER EVER do that. :D)
I can't stand looking at people's knees in winter. its the wierdest pet peeve, I know. I just hate the look of dress with legs stuck into some sort of ankle boot.
I'm looking for a new haircut.
but i'm scared.
Okay, I am kind of looking back at a completely different person.
I love this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bap-oZI-Grc&feature=channel I just adore when she's throwing his stuff out the window. (I would NEVER EVER do that. :D)
I can't stand looking at people's knees in winter. its the wierdest pet peeve, I know. I just hate the look of dress with legs stuck into some sort of ankle boot.
I'm looking for a new haircut.
but i'm scared.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Books..Books..Books
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen (X)
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien (X)
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte (X)
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (X)
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee (X)
6 The Bible - (X)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte ()
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (X)
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens ()
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott (X)
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy ()
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller ()
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (1/2)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ()
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien (X)
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk ()
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger (X)
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger ()
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot ()
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell (X)
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald (X)
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens ()
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy ( )
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams ()
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh ()
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky ()2
8 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck (X)
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll (X)
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame (X)
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy ()
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens (X)
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (X)
34 Emma - Jane Austen (X)
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen (X)
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (X)
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini - (X)
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres ()
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden ()
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne (X)
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell (X)
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown ()
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ()
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving ()
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins ()
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (X)
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy ()
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ()
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding (X)5
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel ()
52 Dune - Frank Herbert ()
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons ()
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen (X)
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth ()
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon ()
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens ()
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley ()
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon ()
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ()
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck (X)
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov ()
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt ()
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold ()
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas ()6
6 On The Road - Jack Kerouac ()
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy ()
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding ()
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie ()
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville (X)
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens ()
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker ()
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett (X)
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson ()
75 Ulysses - James Joyce ()
76 The Inferno - Dante ()
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome ()
78 Germinal - Emile Zola ()
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray ()
80 Possession - AS Byatt ()
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens (X)
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell ( )
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker ()
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro ()
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert ()
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry ()
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White (X)
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom ()
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle ()
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton ()
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad ()
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery ()
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks ()
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams ()
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole ()
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute ()
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas ()
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare (X)
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (X)
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo ()
33 1/2. Whoever choose these was a bit crazed.
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien (X)
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte (X)
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (X)
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee (X)
6 The Bible - (X)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte ()
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (X)
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens ()
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott (X)
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy ()
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller ()
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (1/2)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ()
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien (X)
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk ()
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger (X)
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger ()
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot ()
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell (X)
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald (X)
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens ()
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy ( )
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams ()
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh ()
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky ()2
8 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck (X)
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll (X)
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame (X)
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy ()
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens (X)
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (X)
34 Emma - Jane Austen (X)
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen (X)
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (X)
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini - (X)
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres ()
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden ()
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne (X)
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell (X)
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown ()
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ()
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving ()
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins ()
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (X)
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy ()
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ()
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding (X)5
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel ()
52 Dune - Frank Herbert ()
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons ()
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen (X)
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth ()
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon ()
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens ()
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley ()
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon ()
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez ()
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck (X)
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov ()
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt ()
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold ()
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas ()6
6 On The Road - Jack Kerouac ()
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy ()
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding ()
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie ()
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville (X)
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens ()
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker ()
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett (X)
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson ()
75 Ulysses - James Joyce ()
76 The Inferno - Dante ()
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome ()
78 Germinal - Emile Zola ()
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray ()
80 Possession - AS Byatt ()
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens (X)
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell ( )
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker ()
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro ()
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert ()
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry ()
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White (X)
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom ()
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle ()
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton ()
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad ()
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery ()
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks ()
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams ()
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole ()
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute ()
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas ()
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare (X)
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (X)
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo ()
33 1/2. Whoever choose these was a bit crazed.
cause I don't know if it get's worse than this....
Today we had a practice math quiz- I got a 1/40. Yes, half a point, on a 20 question test. I really, truly hate math. And I've said this nearly every day for the last four years of my life. And my mom has always given me a look and told me to deal. Clearly, that's not working for me. I fail at math. Literally, right now. I don't really want to complain. I'll learn from this and study a crapload tomorrow and try my hardest to pull my grade up out of the F range. (I'm aiming for an A this semester, but I'm trying my hardest for a B.)
This week I have:
an essay on Transcendentalism due on Tuesday
an essay on The Great Gatsby due on Wednesday
a position paper on Australia/UNESCO due on Thursday
a math quiz on Wednesday
a Biology quiz on Tuesday
a Model UN conference all day on Sat.
a Cuban Missle Crisis essay due on Monday
and a history test next Wednesday.
plus assorted other readings.
The lunchlady at Subway asked if I was pregnant today. Granted, I was clutching my stomach and looking depressed (bad cramps) but really? Really. My friend told me later "You look pretty hot for a pregnant girl." Oh sigh.
I am gaining weight. I'm resolved to quit my daily mocha habit this week. And my daily candy bar habit. And to go to the COC gym sometime this week. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe Wednesday. We'll see. I've gotten into the "I'm skinny; I can eat whatever I want whenever I want" mindset. It was great for about a week. Now I feel like a whale. Or a mini-hippo.
I need to make copies for my ethnic and gender politics class. However, I have about 75 cents to my name. And I need a Diet Coke refill. Which will cost me 50 cents. Which leads ~15 cents for copies. Which will be two pages. Of a 25 page article. Clearly that will not work out.
I somehow left the house without iPod headphones. But with an iPod. *Depressed*
Its really awkward to Google-stalk someone when they could very well be in the vicinity.
So, today, it rained, and I was very unprepared. So, it better rain tomorrow. So I can wear my rainboots and a cute rain outfit. Today I woke up at 7:15. And I need to leave the house at 7:35 to be on time. I am so proud of myself for literally throwing something on. Ha, on Friday I literally fell out of bed onto the floor (more of a roll, actually) and wore the first thing I put my hand on.
the great thing about getting dressed up on weekends is that you can wear the same thing on a school day when you have no time to be creative.
This week I have:
an essay on Transcendentalism due on Tuesday
an essay on The Great Gatsby due on Wednesday
a position paper on Australia/UNESCO due on Thursday
a math quiz on Wednesday
a Biology quiz on Tuesday
a Model UN conference all day on Sat.
a Cuban Missle Crisis essay due on Monday
and a history test next Wednesday.
plus assorted other readings.
The lunchlady at Subway asked if I was pregnant today. Granted, I was clutching my stomach and looking depressed (bad cramps) but really? Really. My friend told me later "You look pretty hot for a pregnant girl." Oh sigh.
I am gaining weight. I'm resolved to quit my daily mocha habit this week. And my daily candy bar habit. And to go to the COC gym sometime this week. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe Wednesday. We'll see. I've gotten into the "I'm skinny; I can eat whatever I want whenever I want" mindset. It was great for about a week. Now I feel like a whale. Or a mini-hippo.
I need to make copies for my ethnic and gender politics class. However, I have about 75 cents to my name. And I need a Diet Coke refill. Which will cost me 50 cents. Which leads ~15 cents for copies. Which will be two pages. Of a 25 page article. Clearly that will not work out.
I somehow left the house without iPod headphones. But with an iPod. *Depressed*
Its really awkward to Google-stalk someone when they could very well be in the vicinity.
So, today, it rained, and I was very unprepared. So, it better rain tomorrow. So I can wear my rainboots and a cute rain outfit. Today I woke up at 7:15. And I need to leave the house at 7:35 to be on time. I am so proud of myself for literally throwing something on. Ha, on Friday I literally fell out of bed onto the floor (more of a roll, actually) and wore the first thing I put my hand on.
the great thing about getting dressed up on weekends is that you can wear the same thing on a school day when you have no time to be creative.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
your up and your down
4 things I did today:
1. woke up at an unearthly hour for the umpeenth day in a row and wore an incredibly boring outfit
2. made copies and was 30 minutes late to english
3. ate nachos for lunch
4. thought about doing a lot of things i didn't do
4 things on my to-do list:
1. Clean room
2. finish scrapbook history project
3. get some sleep
4. eat healthier
4 guiltiest pleasures:
1. Blogging
2. my coffee habit
3. crazy music that's so unedifying
4. looking at pictures of myself when I'm bored
4 random facts about me:
1. I say something completely stupid every single day.
2. I hate to sew but love to think about things I would like to make.
3. I love being photographed...i love it. I wish i could be a model.
4. I feel like i'm negatively sterotyped often. and I kind of hate it. one time a professor told me (after getting an A in his class after all semester) "when i first met you I was just like 'she's probably just a cute dumb blonde BUT you really proved me wrong". and he wasn't particularly stereotypical or anything.
1. woke up at an unearthly hour for the umpeenth day in a row and wore an incredibly boring outfit
2. made copies and was 30 minutes late to english
3. ate nachos for lunch
4. thought about doing a lot of things i didn't do
4 things on my to-do list:
1. Clean room
2. finish scrapbook history project
3. get some sleep
4. eat healthier
4 guiltiest pleasures:
1. Blogging
2. my coffee habit
3. crazy music that's so unedifying
4. looking at pictures of myself when I'm bored
4 random facts about me:
1. I say something completely stupid every single day.
2. I hate to sew but love to think about things I would like to make.
3. I love being photographed...i love it. I wish i could be a model.
4. I feel like i'm negatively sterotyped often. and I kind of hate it. one time a professor told me (after getting an A in his class after all semester) "when i first met you I was just like 'she's probably just a cute dumb blonde BUT you really proved me wrong". and he wasn't particularly stereotypical or anything.
I miss you
Dear You:
I miss you. I miss you so much that it really does hurt and when I think about how much I miss you it hurts even more. There are the mornings I wish more than anything that I could pick up the phone and call you. There are the nights where I write the letters I wish I could send. There are the afternoons where I think of all the things that I'll tell you someday. I think of all the songs that remind me of you and I wish you knew them too. I wish we could dance to them again. There's that one 80's song that we used to play and dance around in your living room. I miss that. One time we made pasta and we had a silly joke about the pronounciation of collander. Let's make pasta again. I used to complain that when we came over that you and my dad painted too much. I'd spend the rest of my life scrubbing paint palattes if it meant I could be with you. Once upon a time, on a really sunny but cool day, we rode bikes down to the pier and along that one path. And we sat and stared at the ocean and it was so dreamlike. And I think it might have been a dream. And that exact spot where we were is shown 24/7 on the screens in Hollister. And so I go in Hollister and I don't buy a thing, but I remember a wonderful dream that I once had. 'Cause it was a dream, I think. And than one day the dream turned into a nightmare and than the nightmare turned into a coma-like state.
But now, maybe now, you could make it a dream again? 'Cause I'm sleepy and I'm tired of being awake. I want to go back to that dream. For forever and always. And if that dream came back, I might belive in forever and always again.
Love,
Me
I miss you. I miss you so much that it really does hurt and when I think about how much I miss you it hurts even more. There are the mornings I wish more than anything that I could pick up the phone and call you. There are the nights where I write the letters I wish I could send. There are the afternoons where I think of all the things that I'll tell you someday. I think of all the songs that remind me of you and I wish you knew them too. I wish we could dance to them again. There's that one 80's song that we used to play and dance around in your living room. I miss that. One time we made pasta and we had a silly joke about the pronounciation of collander. Let's make pasta again. I used to complain that when we came over that you and my dad painted too much. I'd spend the rest of my life scrubbing paint palattes if it meant I could be with you. Once upon a time, on a really sunny but cool day, we rode bikes down to the pier and along that one path. And we sat and stared at the ocean and it was so dreamlike. And I think it might have been a dream. And that exact spot where we were is shown 24/7 on the screens in Hollister. And so I go in Hollister and I don't buy a thing, but I remember a wonderful dream that I once had. 'Cause it was a dream, I think. And than one day the dream turned into a nightmare and than the nightmare turned into a coma-like state.
But now, maybe now, you could make it a dream again? 'Cause I'm sleepy and I'm tired of being awake. I want to go back to that dream. For forever and always. And if that dream came back, I might belive in forever and always again.
Love,
Me
sleepy, stupid, and fat.
Today's moods as demonstrated through the 7 dwarfs:
1. Sleepy (authentic dwarf)
2. Stupid
3. Blondie
4. Fat
5. Hungry
6. Stressed
7. Desperate
Its hard for me to beleive that tomorrow at 3:00 my entire perspective on life will probably be changed because every crazy thing I have to do thisweek will finally be finished. ABOUT TIME. Well, I guess the reason its hard to believe is because its not true. I need to do some fun stuff this weekend, though, because next Saturday I'll be at Model UN all day. (Yay!) If I actually had money it would work out better.
Next on the agenda, I'm getting fat. After spending a lot of time printing out pictures of the last year of my life I have come to the conclusion that I have gained weight. Clearly, this is stressful. So of course, to deal with my stress, I have my white chocolate mochas. Which is the most calorie filled drink available at Starbucks. Boo for me. Someone called me a mini-giraffe this morning; which I found endearing. But pretty soon I'll probably be entitled the mini-hippo.
Aww...I'm reading my BFF's blog and she wrote that I'm intelligent and will someday be prestigous. Its so nice to have 1 person on this earth who thinks your smart. :D She calls me Natasha, though, in her posts. Which is wierd. Because reading my name in relation to me is even wierder than hearing my name.
Thirdly, I hate fashion week. Hmmhmm, that's right. I think its stupid. This is the reason I will never be a fashion editor/writer for any magazine. It is my personal opinion that the majority of runway is ridiculous. Its just designers trying to find the newest wierdest thing. I am all for being an individual. That's why I love street fashion. Style blogs. Weardrobe. Etc. Because that's creativity at its prime. It is 10,000 times more cool (to me) to walk into a thrift store and put something amazing together than to have Jean Paul Gaultier deck you out.
Of course, I do love Gaultier. And if he ever wants to deck me out, well, I wouldn't protest.
To top it all off, I am convinced that my hair doesn't grow. I just looked at picture Bethi probably took 9 months ago of me and my hair looked exactly the same. Hmmph.
Why don't guys carry purses? Okay, so maybe not purses like Juicy style. (I use Juicy as a negative example nearly every other post, don't I?) But like, leather man bag style. I guess they do in Europe. Nearly all of my male professors/teachers at school do. And I LOVE them. The bags, I mean. :D I really want a leather messenger bag.
I will never wear overalls. Just thought I'd throw that out there. No matter how popular they are. No matter if every person in America is wearing them. No matter if I live in Podunk, Iowa. I will never wear overalls. or shortalls, or any type of overall skirt/dress.
I want a brick wall. Perhaps Bethany and I will build one on the hill at CalArts for my posing pleasure. :-)
I think America is the boringest country on earth. So maybe its just where I live.
I hate ripped jeans. But I love ripped jeans with leggings underneath. I have odd tastes.
1. Sleepy (authentic dwarf)
2. Stupid
3. Blondie
4. Fat
5. Hungry
6. Stressed
7. Desperate
Its hard for me to beleive that tomorrow at 3:00 my entire perspective on life will probably be changed because every crazy thing I have to do thisweek will finally be finished. ABOUT TIME. Well, I guess the reason its hard to believe is because its not true. I need to do some fun stuff this weekend, though, because next Saturday I'll be at Model UN all day. (Yay!) If I actually had money it would work out better.
Next on the agenda, I'm getting fat. After spending a lot of time printing out pictures of the last year of my life I have come to the conclusion that I have gained weight. Clearly, this is stressful. So of course, to deal with my stress, I have my white chocolate mochas. Which is the most calorie filled drink available at Starbucks. Boo for me. Someone called me a mini-giraffe this morning; which I found endearing. But pretty soon I'll probably be entitled the mini-hippo.
Aww...I'm reading my BFF's blog and she wrote that I'm intelligent and will someday be prestigous. Its so nice to have 1 person on this earth who thinks your smart. :D She calls me Natasha, though, in her posts. Which is wierd. Because reading my name in relation to me is even wierder than hearing my name.
Thirdly, I hate fashion week. Hmmhmm, that's right. I think its stupid. This is the reason I will never be a fashion editor/writer for any magazine. It is my personal opinion that the majority of runway is ridiculous. Its just designers trying to find the newest wierdest thing. I am all for being an individual. That's why I love street fashion. Style blogs. Weardrobe. Etc. Because that's creativity at its prime. It is 10,000 times more cool (to me) to walk into a thrift store and put something amazing together than to have Jean Paul Gaultier deck you out.
Of course, I do love Gaultier. And if he ever wants to deck me out, well, I wouldn't protest.
To top it all off, I am convinced that my hair doesn't grow. I just looked at picture Bethi probably took 9 months ago of me and my hair looked exactly the same. Hmmph.
Why don't guys carry purses? Okay, so maybe not purses like Juicy style. (I use Juicy as a negative example nearly every other post, don't I?) But like, leather man bag style. I guess they do in Europe. Nearly all of my male professors/teachers at school do. And I LOVE them. The bags, I mean. :D I really want a leather messenger bag.
I will never wear overalls. Just thought I'd throw that out there. No matter how popular they are. No matter if every person in America is wearing them. No matter if I live in Podunk, Iowa. I will never wear overalls. or shortalls, or any type of overall skirt/dress.
I want a brick wall. Perhaps Bethany and I will build one on the hill at CalArts for my posing pleasure. :-)
I think America is the boringest country on earth. So maybe its just where I live.
I hate ripped jeans. But I love ripped jeans with leggings underneath. I have odd tastes.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
when i'm with him, i am thinking of you
1. are you younger than 19?
unfortunatly.....
2. have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a J?
teehee, no. *inside joke*
3. how many bathing suits do you own?
twoish.
4. do you like someone?
I don't even know...
5. are you in a relationship at this point in time?
clearly not, if I don't know if i like someone.
6. have you ever eaten uncooked cookie?
best thing ever!!!!
7. ever eaten soap?
ew, yes. when I was about 3 or 4 I thought the really good smelling soap we bought would taste reallly good....so I took a big bite. its one of my earliest memories and BLEH. Ew.
8. what are you listening to right now?
Ain't No Other Man- Christina Aguilera. I'm educating myself?
9. is there a place you would like to visit?
Oui, moi cherie. Pari.
10. what is your favourite kind of dog?
golden retrievers! so cute and cuddly.
11. have you ever fallen into a mud puddle?
knowing me.
12. do you like winter?
I love winter and really want it to get cold again.
14. are you in a band?
hah. no.
15. what are you scared of?
scary people, being alone, walking in the dark.
17. favourite beverage?
white chocolate mocha- starbucks
18. if you could own a monkey, would you?
someone asked me this last week. no.
19. do you own anything from american eagle?
a lot, actually. its my favorite out of hollister/AF/aeropostale.
20. do you listen to rap?
not unless forced.
21. do you like fruit?
if i liked it more i probably wouldn't be complaining about how fat i'm getting.
22. do you have a nextel phone?
no. i don't even ahve a phone. but i really want one.
23. have you ever given a random person your number?
uh, no. i don't even give unrandom people my number. :)
24. what song do you blast every time you hear it?
Disturbia- Rihanna. I <3 the erriness of it.
25. how clean is your room?
I told my friend Ana today that my room looks like a laundromat and a scrapbooking store both exploded.
26. what colour is your room?
white, pink, green, purple.
27. how’s the weather?
boring- sunny, cool. yawn. bring on the clouds and overcastness, imo.
28. what are you excited for?
going to bed tonight and planning something for the weekend.
29. are you an artist?
kind of. I don't draw, persay, but, I have an artistic view of the world, LOL.
30. what are you doing right now?
reading chictopia, listening to really cruddy music, changing song, writing this.
31. how was your day?
ehhh..school deteriorates as the week goes on. but it was all right.
32. what did you just do?
think about how I was over 30 minutes late for english today and am considered truant until my mom calls it in.
33. what did you do yesterday?
school, than went to michaels via walmart after eating at McD's, walked home under beautiful skies, and had a charming time.
34. how many pillows do you sleep with?
one, and about 100 stuffed animals.
35. do you like smores?
Very much!
36. Do you have any plans for today?
no.
37. do you like hugs?
very very much. and I really feel like one about now.
38. are you texting anybody right now?
nope.
39. best thing thats happened to you this week?
this is sad.....um.......nothing really. :-(
40. would you rather have 5 million dollars or find true love?
Find true love. Money is useless without anyone to spend it with.
41. what’s your most visited website?
Yahoo! and probably Google
42. what’s something you really want at the moment?
something exciting and fun to happen
43. do you live with your parents?
yesssss
44.Do you have a job?
unfortunatly for me, no. I really would like to start earning some money, but i really don't have time.
45. do you know who you’re going to marry?
yeah. the substitue that replaced my math teacher last week. he's adorable.....I just Googled him to find out his first name. yes, I'm insane.
46. what’s your favourite thing to buy?
a dress or cute shoes.
47. what are you looking forward to in the next months?
I don't know. I really want to go SOMEWHERE. Anywhere. Get me out of me here!
I'm looking forward to Model UN and spring break I guess.
48. who’s is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Bethers.
49.How often do you cut your hair?
Twice a year maybe.
50. favourite TV show?
What Not to Wear
51. do you miss someone right now ?
so much that it really does hurt
52. whats your favourite colour?
pink and turqoise
53. what is your current problem?
i miss julien SO much. if by some ridiculously crazy chance he ever reads this: i love you so much.
54. what are you doing after this?
going to Bio lecture and lab. :-(
unfortunatly.....
2. have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a J?
teehee, no. *inside joke*
3. how many bathing suits do you own?
twoish.
4. do you like someone?
I don't even know...
5. are you in a relationship at this point in time?
clearly not, if I don't know if i like someone.
6. have you ever eaten uncooked cookie?
best thing ever!!!!
7. ever eaten soap?
ew, yes. when I was about 3 or 4 I thought the really good smelling soap we bought would taste reallly good....so I took a big bite. its one of my earliest memories and BLEH. Ew.
8. what are you listening to right now?
Ain't No Other Man- Christina Aguilera. I'm educating myself?
9. is there a place you would like to visit?
Oui, moi cherie. Pari.
10. what is your favourite kind of dog?
golden retrievers! so cute and cuddly.
11. have you ever fallen into a mud puddle?
knowing me.
12. do you like winter?
I love winter and really want it to get cold again.
14. are you in a band?
hah. no.
15. what are you scared of?
scary people, being alone, walking in the dark.
17. favourite beverage?
white chocolate mocha- starbucks
18. if you could own a monkey, would you?
someone asked me this last week. no.
19. do you own anything from american eagle?
a lot, actually. its my favorite out of hollister/AF/aeropostale.
20. do you listen to rap?
not unless forced.
21. do you like fruit?
if i liked it more i probably wouldn't be complaining about how fat i'm getting.
22. do you have a nextel phone?
no. i don't even ahve a phone. but i really want one.
23. have you ever given a random person your number?
uh, no. i don't even give unrandom people my number. :)
24. what song do you blast every time you hear it?
Disturbia- Rihanna. I <3 the erriness of it.
25. how clean is your room?
I told my friend Ana today that my room looks like a laundromat and a scrapbooking store both exploded.
26. what colour is your room?
white, pink, green, purple.
27. how’s the weather?
boring- sunny, cool. yawn. bring on the clouds and overcastness, imo.
28. what are you excited for?
going to bed tonight and planning something for the weekend.
29. are you an artist?
kind of. I don't draw, persay, but, I have an artistic view of the world, LOL.
30. what are you doing right now?
reading chictopia, listening to really cruddy music, changing song, writing this.
31. how was your day?
ehhh..school deteriorates as the week goes on. but it was all right.
32. what did you just do?
think about how I was over 30 minutes late for english today and am considered truant until my mom calls it in.
33. what did you do yesterday?
school, than went to michaels via walmart after eating at McD's, walked home under beautiful skies, and had a charming time.
34. how many pillows do you sleep with?
one, and about 100 stuffed animals.
35. do you like smores?
Very much!
36. Do you have any plans for today?
no.
37. do you like hugs?
very very much. and I really feel like one about now.
38. are you texting anybody right now?
nope.
39. best thing thats happened to you this week?
this is sad.....um.......nothing really. :-(
40. would you rather have 5 million dollars or find true love?
Find true love. Money is useless without anyone to spend it with.
41. what’s your most visited website?
Yahoo! and probably Google
42. what’s something you really want at the moment?
something exciting and fun to happen
43. do you live with your parents?
yesssss
44.Do you have a job?
unfortunatly for me, no. I really would like to start earning some money, but i really don't have time.
45. do you know who you’re going to marry?
yeah. the substitue that replaced my math teacher last week. he's adorable.....I just Googled him to find out his first name. yes, I'm insane.
46. what’s your favourite thing to buy?
a dress or cute shoes.
47. what are you looking forward to in the next months?
I don't know. I really want to go SOMEWHERE. Anywhere. Get me out of me here!
I'm looking forward to Model UN and spring break I guess.
48. who’s is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Bethers.
49.How often do you cut your hair?
Twice a year maybe.
50. favourite TV show?
What Not to Wear
51. do you miss someone right now ?
so much that it really does hurt
52. whats your favourite colour?
pink and turqoise
53. what is your current problem?
i miss julien SO much. if by some ridiculously crazy chance he ever reads this: i love you so much.
54. what are you doing after this?
going to Bio lecture and lab. :-(
you gave everything to me. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Why are you not going out with the person you want to?
Because they aren't interested as far as I know.
Where’s the last place you went?
Schooollllll
Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
Nothing that will happen in the near future. But I'm looking forward to college. And summer, hopefully on the East Coast.
Have you ever worn false eyelashes?
Yes!!! They aer soo fun! This girl at my school wears like fake eyelashes with peacock feathers on them. They are soo awesome! Of course, I would never wear them.
At the moment, are you more warm or cold?
Very cold.
Do you find girls/guys with facial piercings attractive?
NO.
When was the last time you saw snow?
Last week.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
Kyle and Bethany.
Who was the last person to insult you to your face?
Daniel. Or maybe Shelby.
Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face?
Hmmhmm.
Who was the last person you sat next to?
some random girl on the side of jazz class.
What did you do today?
Went to AOC, talked to the sub for a while, gossiped, went to ethnic and gender politics, had subway, went to lunch, went to dance.
What did you do yesterday?
went to history, the orthodontist, got Subway, had lunch with cool morning track people, hung out with daniel, went to math, hung out with daniel, went home, did homework, took bubble bath, went to sleep.
Who can you tell anything to?
Bethany.
What are your plans for tomorrow?
Same as yesterday, minus the orthodonist, plus youth group.
What are you thinking about right now?
how my life would suck without you.
Do you smile often?
No, I'm so emo and uncheery. I'm like a giant rain cloud.
Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
Ocean.
When was the last time you cried?
right now....stupid video.
Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because it is.
How long is your hair?
very very long.
Last thing you ate?
Subway.
Who last sent you a text message?
nobody ever. :-(
Last person you hugged?
my dad.
Who do you dislike currently?
HAH! You don't know who you are.
Are you wearing make-up?
Hmmhmm.
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
the love of my life, and a marc jacobs bag.
Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to?
Secrets keep friends.
Something you hate more than anything?
racism. pride.
Tears are falling from your eyes, what’s the reason?
someones slowly breaking my heart.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day/night?
Yeah. I'm optimistic.
Are you in a good mood?
kind of
Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Sleeeeeepppp innnn. Ahhh HEaven.
are you wearing anything?
No. I'm sitting in the middle of the computer lab completely naked and blogging.
Actually, I'm wearing an adorable dress from Twelve by Twelve (a division of F21), black ribbed tights, and black flats. and a beret.
Are you paranoid about something?
people following me.
Does it take a lot to make you cry?
No.
Wanting to tell someone something?
very much.
What would you do with five million dollars?
buy a new house with a bigger closet with a new wardrobe.
What do you think about toe socks?:
They are sooo sooo ugly. I got abotu five pairs for vday from my darling gramma. Oh my.
Would you rather watch a romantic movie or a really gory one?
Romantic!!!
If you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick?
Watermelon.
What are some of your nervous habits?
bite nails, twirl hair, tap foot.
If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
if we had a loft to ourselves, Bethany. If I had to move in with the whole family; Jessicah.
What is your favorite curse word?
Heehee. a certain word in French makes me gultily smile.
Do you have a favourite toilet paper brand too?
I like the Charmin Ultra commerical.
How long does it take you to get ready?
an hour to an hour and a half depending on whether i do my hair.
Would you change yourself to make someone like you?
if it were something small, than yes.
Are you the type people should take seriously, or should they think you’re joking most of the time?
I have no idea! Probably should think I'm joking.
When you like someone, and they don’t know about it, are you the type who wants to tell them, or them to make a move first?
They better make a move first or we will never get anywhere. If I really like someone, I do NOT tell them.
Does it annoy you when people say their heart is “broken”?
No, its completely valid. Hearts break. It hurts. its life.
Because they aren't interested as far as I know.
Where’s the last place you went?
Schooollllll
Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
Nothing that will happen in the near future. But I'm looking forward to college. And summer, hopefully on the East Coast.
Have you ever worn false eyelashes?
Yes!!! They aer soo fun! This girl at my school wears like fake eyelashes with peacock feathers on them. They are soo awesome! Of course, I would never wear them.
At the moment, are you more warm or cold?
Very cold.
Do you find girls/guys with facial piercings attractive?
NO.
When was the last time you saw snow?
Last week.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
Kyle and Bethany.
Who was the last person to insult you to your face?
Daniel. Or maybe Shelby.
Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face?
Hmmhmm.
Who was the last person you sat next to?
some random girl on the side of jazz class.
What did you do today?
Went to AOC, talked to the sub for a while, gossiped, went to ethnic and gender politics, had subway, went to lunch, went to dance.
What did you do yesterday?
went to history, the orthodontist, got Subway, had lunch with cool morning track people, hung out with daniel, went to math, hung out with daniel, went home, did homework, took bubble bath, went to sleep.
Who can you tell anything to?
Bethany.
What are your plans for tomorrow?
Same as yesterday, minus the orthodonist, plus youth group.
What are you thinking about right now?
how my life would suck without you.
Do you smile often?
No, I'm so emo and uncheery. I'm like a giant rain cloud.
Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
Ocean.
When was the last time you cried?
right now....stupid video.
Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because it is.
How long is your hair?
very very long.
Last thing you ate?
Subway.
Who last sent you a text message?
nobody ever. :-(
Last person you hugged?
my dad.
Who do you dislike currently?
HAH! You don't know who you are.
Are you wearing make-up?
Hmmhmm.
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
the love of my life, and a marc jacobs bag.
Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to?
Secrets keep friends.
Something you hate more than anything?
racism. pride.
Tears are falling from your eyes, what’s the reason?
someones slowly breaking my heart.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day/night?
Yeah. I'm optimistic.
Are you in a good mood?
kind of
Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Sleeeeeepppp innnn. Ahhh HEaven.
are you wearing anything?
No. I'm sitting in the middle of the computer lab completely naked and blogging.
Actually, I'm wearing an adorable dress from Twelve by Twelve (a division of F21), black ribbed tights, and black flats. and a beret.
Are you paranoid about something?
people following me.
Does it take a lot to make you cry?
No.
Wanting to tell someone something?
very much.
What would you do with five million dollars?
buy a new house with a bigger closet with a new wardrobe.
What do you think about toe socks?:
They are sooo sooo ugly. I got abotu five pairs for vday from my darling gramma. Oh my.
Would you rather watch a romantic movie or a really gory one?
Romantic!!!
If you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick?
Watermelon.
What are some of your nervous habits?
bite nails, twirl hair, tap foot.
If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
if we had a loft to ourselves, Bethany. If I had to move in with the whole family; Jessicah.
What is your favorite curse word?
Heehee. a certain word in French makes me gultily smile.
Do you have a favourite toilet paper brand too?
I like the Charmin Ultra commerical.
How long does it take you to get ready?
an hour to an hour and a half depending on whether i do my hair.
Would you change yourself to make someone like you?
if it were something small, than yes.
Are you the type people should take seriously, or should they think you’re joking most of the time?
I have no idea! Probably should think I'm joking.
When you like someone, and they don’t know about it, are you the type who wants to tell them, or them to make a move first?
They better make a move first or we will never get anywhere. If I really like someone, I do NOT tell them.
Does it annoy you when people say their heart is “broken”?
No, its completely valid. Hearts break. It hurts. its life.
forever and never
1. what are three ways to win your heart?
1. bring flowers, 2. write poem/song, 3. carry me
2. do you like lightning?
yes
3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
my Barbies! No, nobody would trust me with scissors and their head.
4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
Daniel.
5. rain or sunshine?
Rain rain rain. Rain with a side of rian. Let it rain baby!!!!!
6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
Oh gosh. I can't even remember anymore.
7. biggest turn off?
acting stupid and lack of intelligence/wit.
8. fave movie?
August Rush.
9. would you date someone who smokes?
No.
10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
No. Oh yeah, I'd be great with some addict. He'd be high and I'd just be me.
11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?
big strong arms, charming smile, and beautiful eyes.
13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
nope. I have missed people. its kind of the story of forever.
15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
Christian Bale.
16. what’s your relationship status?
very very single.
17. do you like cuddling?
every single darn survey.
18. do you hold grudges?
not really. if the person apologizes sincerely I'm pretty much fine. If they don't.... *rawr*
19. do you regret liking anyone?
On the list of my biggest regrets in life this is up there.
21. missing someone?
always.
22. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
don't ever build your world around someone because when they leave your empty.
23. are you happy single?
mostly, yes.
24. how important are looks?
Bottom of the list. If I like your personality enough I start to find you attractive. Of course, than there are those who are attractive to begin with.
as I say often, a lot has changed in the last year.
25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
Super super hot guys are usually horrible personality/character wise.
27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
*Heh* Dilemnas, dilemnas.
28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
No.
29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
It so depends. Probably not.
30. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the heck are you”? What do you say back?
"Who the heck are you?" I'm so good at comebacks.
31. are you spoiled?
Yes and no. I have a ton of stuff and a great life material wise. With what I'm allowed to do and what is expected of me....no.
32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
- physical/emotional abuse and manipulation
- not communicating/being honest
- arrogance
33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good stripper?
we're such a modest bunch, LOL.
34. did you miss anyone today?
everyday for the rest of forever.
35. last person to see you cry?
my pillow/Frisky my ever loyal stuffed dog
36. Who/what made you cry?
my fantastic extended family. thanks guys.
37. are you a forgiving person?
yup.
38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
We share everything else!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO, never. That's such a stupid ?.
39. i’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug…
my Daddy. He came back from Florida this morning and I ran into his room this morning and jumped on the bed until he got up and gave me a hug. And an incredibly awesome Lady and the Tramp pin from DisneyWorld. He's dabest.
40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
girlies. which is good and bad. drama times 2,000.
41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
an hour.
42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
like two.
43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
um no.
44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
LOL.
45. what is your full name?
Natasha Victoria.
46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
Not for public info, LOL.
47. do you straighten your hair every day?
Ewwww...no
49. are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
No.
50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
Vogue, Teen Vogue, Seventeen.
51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Not really.
52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
I cry in nearly every movie I have ever seen.
The Notebook depressed me for about six hours.
53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
LOL. Yes, I would. It would distress me greatly.
54. what’s the biggest turn on about guys?
eyes, arms, etc.
55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
Girly. But not to the point of annoyance.
56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
No.
57. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
My Christmas dress was originally $140. My fancy dresses were originall +$200. The most expensive thing I've ever personally bought clothing wise was probably less than $40.
58. what color do you absolutely despise?
Orange.
59. have you ever stole?
i have a dark past.
60. have you set your hair on fire?
LOL, not yet.
61. do you wear sweat pants?
in my house, and to dance classes, no where else ever.
62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
I go to public school in a place where there is not much to do and people have an excess of everything. take a guess.
63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
yes!!!!!!
64. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
agreed.
65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
No. Again, I like to be completely alone and have no contact with humanity whatsoever.
66. do you act gangster?
Hah. Me and ganster. Hah.
67. ever made a prank phone call?
Yup.
69. what bill do you hate paying most?
I just got a debit card last week.....and there's like no fees. and that's the only "bill" i have.
70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
Camp! LOL.
71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
Pediatrician at Children's Hospital San Diego. Those were the days my friends.
72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
walk in the rain.
73. when did you first start feeling older?
this year.
74. favorite guilty pleasure?
Coffeee!
75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
The Obama family.
76. what famous person would you like to live with?
oh gosh...as a very non-romantic relationship---- Stephen Colbert. He's so funny I'd be laughing at politics all day long.
78. what do you hate about your school?
the excessive fakeness and superficiality displayed by the majority of constituents.
79. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
awkward phrasing....bethany's.
80. have you lost a friend recently?
kind of.
81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
nope.
82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
sort of.
83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
Forgive. I never forget anything.
84. do you give out second chances too easily?
probably. I kind of liek letting people walk all over me.
85. is your best friend pretty?
Excessively so. :D
86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
I make life awkward.
87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
many times on the way to ballet.
88. can you make yourself cry?
yeah.
89. is your life simple or complicated?
I think there's a reason Bethi and I read Real Simple. We like to think about what it could be.
90. are you easily confused?
Hah.
92. are you taller than 5′4″?
Much.
93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Ohhhhh yeah. You have no idea.
94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Yup.
95. does everything really happen for a reason?
In a good and bad way, yes.
1. bring flowers, 2. write poem/song, 3. carry me
2. do you like lightning?
yes
3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
my Barbies! No, nobody would trust me with scissors and their head.
4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
Daniel.
5. rain or sunshine?
Rain rain rain. Rain with a side of rian. Let it rain baby!!!!!
6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
Oh gosh. I can't even remember anymore.
7. biggest turn off?
acting stupid and lack of intelligence/wit.
8. fave movie?
August Rush.
9. would you date someone who smokes?
No.
10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
No. Oh yeah, I'd be great with some addict. He'd be high and I'd just be me.
11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?
big strong arms, charming smile, and beautiful eyes.
13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
nope. I have missed people. its kind of the story of forever.
15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
Christian Bale.
16. what’s your relationship status?
very very single.
17. do you like cuddling?
every single darn survey.
18. do you hold grudges?
not really. if the person apologizes sincerely I'm pretty much fine. If they don't.... *rawr*
19. do you regret liking anyone?
On the list of my biggest regrets in life this is up there.
21. missing someone?
always.
22. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
don't ever build your world around someone because when they leave your empty.
23. are you happy single?
mostly, yes.
24. how important are looks?
Bottom of the list. If I like your personality enough I start to find you attractive. Of course, than there are those who are attractive to begin with.
as I say often, a lot has changed in the last year.
25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
Super super hot guys are usually horrible personality/character wise.
27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
*Heh* Dilemnas, dilemnas.
28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
No.
29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
It so depends. Probably not.
30. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the heck are you”? What do you say back?
"Who the heck are you?" I'm so good at comebacks.
31. are you spoiled?
Yes and no. I have a ton of stuff and a great life material wise. With what I'm allowed to do and what is expected of me....no.
32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
- physical/emotional abuse and manipulation
- not communicating/being honest
- arrogance
33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good stripper?
we're such a modest bunch, LOL.
34. did you miss anyone today?
everyday for the rest of forever.
35. last person to see you cry?
my pillow/Frisky my ever loyal stuffed dog
36. Who/what made you cry?
my fantastic extended family. thanks guys.
37. are you a forgiving person?
yup.
38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
We share everything else!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO, never. That's such a stupid ?.
39. i’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug…
my Daddy. He came back from Florida this morning and I ran into his room this morning and jumped on the bed until he got up and gave me a hug. And an incredibly awesome Lady and the Tramp pin from DisneyWorld. He's dabest.
40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
girlies. which is good and bad. drama times 2,000.
41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
an hour.
42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
like two.
43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
um no.
44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
LOL.
45. what is your full name?
Natasha Victoria.
46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
Not for public info, LOL.
47. do you straighten your hair every day?
Ewwww...no
49. are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
No.
50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
Vogue, Teen Vogue, Seventeen.
51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Not really.
52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
I cry in nearly every movie I have ever seen.
The Notebook depressed me for about six hours.
53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
LOL. Yes, I would. It would distress me greatly.
54. what’s the biggest turn on about guys?
eyes, arms, etc.
55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
Girly. But not to the point of annoyance.
56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
No.
57. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
My Christmas dress was originally $140. My fancy dresses were originall +$200. The most expensive thing I've ever personally bought clothing wise was probably less than $40.
58. what color do you absolutely despise?
Orange.
59. have you ever stole?
i have a dark past.
60. have you set your hair on fire?
LOL, not yet.
61. do you wear sweat pants?
in my house, and to dance classes, no where else ever.
62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
I go to public school in a place where there is not much to do and people have an excess of everything. take a guess.
63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
yes!!!!!!
64. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
agreed.
65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
No. Again, I like to be completely alone and have no contact with humanity whatsoever.
66. do you act gangster?
Hah. Me and ganster. Hah.
67. ever made a prank phone call?
Yup.
69. what bill do you hate paying most?
I just got a debit card last week.....and there's like no fees. and that's the only "bill" i have.
70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
Camp! LOL.
71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
Pediatrician at Children's Hospital San Diego. Those were the days my friends.
72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
walk in the rain.
73. when did you first start feeling older?
this year.
74. favorite guilty pleasure?
Coffeee!
75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
The Obama family.
76. what famous person would you like to live with?
oh gosh...as a very non-romantic relationship---- Stephen Colbert. He's so funny I'd be laughing at politics all day long.
78. what do you hate about your school?
the excessive fakeness and superficiality displayed by the majority of constituents.
79. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
awkward phrasing....bethany's.
80. have you lost a friend recently?
kind of.
81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
nope.
82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
sort of.
83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
Forgive. I never forget anything.
84. do you give out second chances too easily?
probably. I kind of liek letting people walk all over me.
85. is your best friend pretty?
Excessively so. :D
86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
I make life awkward.
87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
many times on the way to ballet.
88. can you make yourself cry?
yeah.
89. is your life simple or complicated?
I think there's a reason Bethi and I read Real Simple. We like to think about what it could be.
90. are you easily confused?
Hah.
92. are you taller than 5′4″?
Much.
93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Ohhhhh yeah. You have no idea.
94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Yup.
95. does everything really happen for a reason?
In a good and bad way, yes.
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